[This was both alarming, and brought the tiniest flicker of hope. Neither were comfortable emotions, but at least they were different.
How the hell had they changed history? Even Ascians couldn't do anything like that, not even close. And yet, these broken peoples--]
How do you know this? And- if what you say is true, and the course of history has been altered- how can you be sure this original version still exists?
[What were the rules governing this sort of thing? Considering it was something that should have been impossible, he didn't know.]
[She hesitates. It's obvious he was going to ask that, but all she can do is reason it out and hope it's enough to make him listen to her seriously.]
I have no proof, I'm afraid. And it is not my world to be speaking of in the first place. But if there were a world for every scenario, all those infinite little possibilities where one person chose something differently and altered the ripples from there on out, then statistically, there certainly is one in which those who were determined to change history failed to do so, one way or another.
All I have is a firsthand account. And perhaps I should take it with a grain of salt, but I believe in the person who told it to me.
[Which is all she can do. And speaking of believing...]
Is there really nothing more I can do to convince you I don't just want you to drop dead? Because I don't, and it hurts to see you sulk and lash out at others over it. I want to fix the problem, because you're like to simmer for a good long time if I can't.
[Holding the mug with both hands, he taps the side of it with his fingers, thoughtful. He wanted to shake Irhya down for more information; it was clear she was holding something back, and the Ascian was less inclined than before to give her the benefit of the doubt. But yet, if he accepted the information for what it was....
It still didn't change his own fate, what he would have to face eventually, but- it was something to think about. A timeline when the Eighth Umbral Calamity succeeded, the next Rejoining had succeeded. Even if he'd never see it himself.]
...I don't believe you're lying. Thank you for telling me.
[The neutrality is a step up from cold, at least. Though at Irhya's question, he sighs, frowning anew as he stares across at her. But he hesitates, trying to find the words to explain, rather than only lash out again.]
And there's a difference between what you want to do, and what you're willing to do. I had thought- believed, that it was a matter of non-interference. That if I should find the means to change my personal fate, that you would put your faith in my star's Warrior of Light to be able to handle the drift in their tide.
To trust- if not the both of us, at least that reflection of yourself.
I never said I was going to stop you from trying. I just said I can't help you with it personally.
[And there lies the crux of the issue, at least to her. The interpretation of that as an act of malice. Her ears slowly drift downward.]
I'm sorry it came across that way, at least; I didn't think it would set off such a chain reaction, and it was thoughtless to try anyway in that state. But I see where the misunderstanding came from now.
I never expected you to help with it. I said as much, didn't I? Mutual tolerance or no, we're not on the same side.
[Granted, the way he'd said it probably sounded more bitter than it was. He hadn't exactly been in a mood to phrase it nicely. And it had spiraled out from there.
Knowing the cause was something, even if it didn't erase the hurt.]
If you were seeking suggestions on how to destroy Zodiark or the last of my kind, I would likewise not assist. But nor would I intervene. I assumed that was understood.
[She doesn't seem any more pleased for the mutual understanding, though.]
I just... I don't want to see you hurting so badly over something like that, all right? Bad enough I've done this song and dance once before; I didn't want to make the same mistake again in just leaving it to fester.
[It certainly wasn't any more comfortable. And though he had the impulse to tell her that he had no need or interest in her concern, this time he manages to restrain it.
Tiredness seems to have won out, for the moment.]
...Some things are safe to be allowed to burn out. Though I think you're right in assuming that this would not.
[And the idea of anyone- particularly an enemy having an opinion on his suffering was an unsettling one. Invasive, almost.]
[A small sigh; she sets her drink on the nearest desk and sits next to him on the bed, threading a hand through her hair first before turning her head to look at him.]
Do we have... something of an understanding now, at least? You may be an enemy, but that doesn't mean you don't deserve respect.
[As if he wasn't at least as responsible, but good luck getting him to admit to it.
And though it's sharply spoken, Emet-Selch doesn't seem inclined to continue along those lines; the arrogance that follows is more the habitual, everyday sort. It was still more pretense, more bluff than normal, but it was closer.]
And of course I deserve respect. Did it take you this long to notice?
[That at least he seems to have fallen back into more comfortable habits gives Irhya cause to relax a little. Her tail curls behind her on the bed, draping halfway off of it.]
No, no. I've always felt that way. You've always sort of commanded it, you know, whether you meant to or not.
I just hope you would afford me the same, for what it's worth.
[Even if it was an imitation, and the hurt was still there, it probably counted as an improvement. Shaking his head, he leans over to put his own drink down, out of the way. He probably would get to it later, once it was well and truly cold, but even in his marginally improved state, the Ascian had little inclination for much of anything.]
And why wouldn't I respect you? [Straightening back up, he glances sideways at her.] You've undone more work and more Ascians in your meager lifespan than any mortal who's ever existed. I don't have to like it, [A dismissive wave.] but it would be useless to not recognize it.
I'm glad to hear that, I suppose. I know it must have fallen on deaf ears when you were so worked up, but I meant what I said about those better qualities of yours, too. Scathing wit and all.
[Her eyes fall to his drink set off to the side, a savage glint of something playful emanating from her gaze.]
Aren't you gonna drink that? It might make you feel a little better. A friend once taught me the magic of warm drinks when you feel like shite, so I would pass it on to you.
Not necessarily for his safety, but what the hell was she up to?]
I'm not concerned exactly- but why the sudden interest?
[It would probably be faster to just comply. If nothing else, it would be a show of willingness towards a return to their usual dynamic. The Ascian sighs. Even as he asks, he stretches over to get the mug again.]
[Irhya waits expectantly, still smiling a bit too sweetly, eying him a bit too closely. There's nothing unusual in the hot chocolate itself, of course; it's probably gone a little to the lukewarm side since she gave it to him, but nothing's out of place.
It's the mild excitement building up to it that seems suspect, something that feeds only faintly through the line. Anticipation, even a dash of nerves. She's not unaware of the fact he's probably picking up on it even without the emotional link, but it does not seem to deter her any.]
It's not as good if it's cold. Come on, now. You act like you've never had it before.
[The second the mug leaves his lips, she makes her move, leaning in and enclosing his mouth in a kiss that tastes of chocolate through and through. Irhya lingers only for a few moments, just in case he's more likely to shove her off than reciprocate, and comes away with a sheepish smile, quietly praying she didn't just make it ten times worse again.
The apprehension is still heavy across the tether.]
[Though Emet-Selch hadn't been quite sure what he'd been expecting other than a drink, he was fairly sure that hadn't been it. But it did clarify a few things.
...Sort of clarify, anyway. He'd now either kissed or been kissed by three of Hydaelyn's champions. What was wrong with them? What was wrong with him?
Because after a moment's startle, he does press back into the kiss, for as long as it lasts. When she pulls back, he regards her evenly, though a thread of amusement, a flicker of- interest?- could likely be felt through the tether. That apprehension almost has him put the mug back down straight away, but- instead he hums thoughtfully to himself before he answers.]
You must have chosen a truly potent one, to have gotten anything from so small a dose.
Irhya pauses, assesses, fixes him with a look of slow acknowledgment. Then she smiles, and it's one of her sharp scimitar smirks this time. The apprehension is quick to morph into a single hard beat of want. ]
Yeah. The most sophisticated I could come up with, of course.
[Funny, indeed. She's drawn him successfully out of sulking, but maybe... maybe she could take it a few ilms further.
Or a few malms, since it's her, and she does nothing in small measures.]
So... Do you suppose you'd benefit from working all that negativity out of your system?
[That sudden hit of desire was certainly a thing, though it came as less of a surprise this time. He wondered if this was a new development from Irhya, or if had it been there for some time, and he hadn't noticed- assuming her banter and teasing had been just that. A not unreasonable assumption, the Ascian felt, considering who and what they were.
But he couldn't quite share in the immediacy of that feeling. Caution was still there. The underlying hurt was still there. The eternal misery was still there, to round out the layers. They would always be there, but he could try, for a time, for it to not be his primary focus.]
All of it...? There's a line between confidence and delusion.
[Still, he knows it's not meant literally. And he shifts to put the mug back down out of the way again, before turning towards her, not exactly unwilling to be convinced.]
No, I'm not that foolish. I'm afraid sexual healing only goes so far.
[Her tail curls up at the end, ears pointed back briefly.]
And you have thousands of years more baggage than I can possibly account for, besides. But perhaps it would be beneficial to raising your mood for right now, at least. Or at least expending all the energy towards something other than sulking.
[Which she still maintains he was doing, no matter what he may say. There's also that she has already put prodigious amounts of energy into hiding any lingering glances at him or overly intense spikes of emotion; it's tiring, having to mask the things you feel, and Hades broadcasting out his hurt all the time is just weighing on them.]
Even if just to leave things on a good note. It's true that this kind of thing does not have to factor into that, but...
[Her posture recovers, and she straightens up, looking serious for just long enough to make a statement.]
Well, I happen to be a here-and-now person, myself. And I would be lying to say there was not some part of me that found the idea enticing.
Unfortunately, I am neither a here nor now person. And you presume a great deal, considering what you've done.
[Emet-Selch certainly hadn't made any effort to shield his hurt from them, using it as a weapon to not only harm, but to protect against any return in pain. Whenever he slept, there was a break from it- and he had slept a lot- but as soon as consciousness hit, so did everything else.
To reduce it to sulking does get a flash of annoyance from him, and he doesn't try to hide that either, even as he stretches an arm out, to trail fingers along the miqo'te's cheek. It would never be as straightforward as she made it sound. But perhaps that didn't matter either.]
However. As a show of good faith--
[His hand slips to the back of her neck, pushing her forward, even as he leans in himself. And when his lips press firmly against Irhya's, there's no trace of hesitation.]
[She's mid-pout when he closes the gap again, and it's like a switch is flipped, because she reciprocates fiercely, almost enough to push back in the opposite direction. But eventually, when her back hits the bed, she lets the brewing point of contention go, her tail doing a flick under her as she falls.
Irhya was never a convincing speaker; she has ever been a woman of action first, thought later.]
Can I make it up to you?
[It's a sincere, earnest whisper against his lips when they part, perhaps surprisingly so given her usual demeanor. The tether pulses with more than just desire -- it is also a desire to please, to make peace, and the enkindled hope that she might be able to do so, if only like this.]
[Following her back against the bed, Emet-Selch lets his body drape lightly over Irhya's, though he props himself up a bit with his arms. When the kiss finally breaks and he hears her question--
This was probably when he was supposed to acquiesce, to say that she could try, to play along. And the feelings coming from her were definitely a lure in that direction.
But perhaps a touch of spite remained, even so, that habit towards difficulty. Brushing another, comparatively light kiss to her lips, the Ascian shifts a hand to stroke slowly over one of her ears, before skritching gently at the base of it. His voice is soft when he replies.]
Probably not.
[Desire mixed with hurt, mixed with loneliness and an insignificant amount of hope. Emet-Selch actually tries to restrain it this time, but he hasn't had much practice, so it mostly comes through the line regardless.]
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How the hell had they changed history? Even Ascians couldn't do anything like that, not even close. And yet, these broken peoples--]
How do you know this? And- if what you say is true, and the course of history has been altered- how can you be sure this original version still exists?
[What were the rules governing this sort of thing? Considering it was something that should have been impossible, he didn't know.]
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I have no proof, I'm afraid. And it is not my world to be speaking of in the first place. But if there were a world for every scenario, all those infinite little possibilities where one person chose something differently and altered the ripples from there on out, then statistically, there certainly is one in which those who were determined to change history failed to do so, one way or another.
All I have is a firsthand account. And perhaps I should take it with a grain of salt, but I believe in the person who told it to me.
[Which is all she can do. And speaking of believing...]
Is there really nothing more I can do to convince you I don't just want you to drop dead? Because I don't, and it hurts to see you sulk and lash out at others over it. I want to fix the problem, because you're like to simmer for a good long time if I can't.
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It still didn't change his own fate, what he would have to face eventually, but- it was something to think about. A timeline when the Eighth Umbral Calamity succeeded, the next Rejoining had succeeded. Even if he'd never see it himself.]
...I don't believe you're lying. Thank you for telling me.
[The neutrality is a step up from cold, at least. Though at Irhya's question, he sighs, frowning anew as he stares across at her. But he hesitates, trying to find the words to explain, rather than only lash out again.]
And there's a difference between what you want to do, and what you're willing to do. I had thought- believed, that it was a matter of non-interference. That if I should find the means to change my personal fate, that you would put your faith in my star's Warrior of Light to be able to handle the drift in their tide.
To trust- if not the both of us, at least that reflection of yourself.
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[And there lies the crux of the issue, at least to her. The interpretation of that as an act of malice. Her ears slowly drift downward.]
I'm sorry it came across that way, at least; I didn't think it would set off such a chain reaction, and it was thoughtless to try anyway in that state. But I see where the misunderstanding came from now.
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[Granted, the way he'd said it probably sounded more bitter than it was. He hadn't exactly been in a mood to phrase it nicely. And it had spiraled out from there.
Knowing the cause was something, even if it didn't erase the hurt.]
If you were seeking suggestions on how to destroy Zodiark or the last of my kind, I would likewise not assist. But nor would I intervene. I assumed that was understood.
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[She doesn't seem any more pleased for the mutual understanding, though.]
I just... I don't want to see you hurting so badly over something like that, all right? Bad enough I've done this song and dance once before; I didn't want to make the same mistake again in just leaving it to fester.
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Tiredness seems to have won out, for the moment.]
...Some things are safe to be allowed to burn out. Though I think you're right in assuming that this would not.
[And the idea of anyone- particularly an enemy having an opinion on his suffering was an unsettling one. Invasive, almost.]
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Do we have... something of an understanding now, at least? You may be an enemy, but that doesn't mean you don't deserve respect.
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[As if he wasn't at least as responsible, but good luck getting him to admit to it.
And though it's sharply spoken, Emet-Selch doesn't seem inclined to continue along those lines; the arrogance that follows is more the habitual, everyday sort. It was still more pretense, more bluff than normal, but it was closer.]
And of course I deserve respect. Did it take you this long to notice?
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No, no. I've always felt that way. You've always sort of commanded it, you know, whether you meant to or not.
I just hope you would afford me the same, for what it's worth.
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[Even if it was an imitation, and the hurt was still there, it probably counted as an improvement. Shaking his head, he leans over to put his own drink down, out of the way. He probably would get to it later, once it was well and truly cold, but even in his marginally improved state, the Ascian had little inclination for much of anything.]
And why wouldn't I respect you? [Straightening back up, he glances sideways at her.] You've undone more work and more Ascians in your meager lifespan than any mortal who's ever existed. I don't have to like it, [A dismissive wave.] but it would be useless to not recognize it.
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[She looks... speculative all of a sudden.
That usually means trouble is about to happen.]
I'm glad to hear that, I suppose. I know it must have fallen on deaf ears when you were so worked up, but I meant what I said about those better qualities of yours, too. Scathing wit and all.
[Her eyes fall to his drink set off to the side, a savage glint of something playful emanating from her gaze.]
Aren't you gonna drink that? It might make you feel a little better. A friend once taught me the magic of warm drinks when you feel like shite, so I would pass it on to you.
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Well, it's not as though I require a mortal to inform me of my positive traits. You're just stating the obvious.
[Though the sudden interest in the drink has him throw her a skeptical look.]
--And that's suspiciously insistent of you. Usually when one tries to poison someone, one avoids drawing attention to it.
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Maybe that's because I'm not trying to poison you? I'll even drink from it myself if you're so concerned.
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Not necessarily for his safety, but what the hell was she up to?]
I'm not concerned exactly- but why the sudden interest?
[It would probably be faster to just comply. If nothing else, it would be a show of willingness towards a return to their usual dynamic. The Ascian sighs. Even as he asks, he stretches over to get the mug again.]
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It's the mild excitement building up to it that seems suspect, something that feeds only faintly through the line. Anticipation, even a dash of nerves. She's not unaware of the fact he's probably picking up on it even without the emotional link, but it does not seem to deter her any.]
It's not as good if it's cold. Come on, now. You act like you've never had it before.
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Irhya can probably get a small sense of exasperation and confusion from him- as though it weren't also plainly written in his expression.]
I never wanted anything to begin with-
[But look, he's drinking now, are you happy Irhya.]
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The apprehension is still heavy across the tether.]
I guess we must both be poisoned now.
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...Sort of clarify, anyway. He'd now either kissed or been kissed by three of Hydaelyn's champions. What was wrong with them? What was wrong with him?
Because after a moment's startle, he does press back into the kiss, for as long as it lasts. When she pulls back, he regards her evenly, though a thread of amusement, a flicker of- interest?- could likely be felt through the tether. That apprehension almost has him put the mug back down straight away, but- instead he hums thoughtfully to himself before he answers.]
You must have chosen a truly potent one, to have gotten anything from so small a dose.
[And he'll just take another drink, then.]
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Irhya pauses, assesses, fixes him with a look of slow acknowledgment. Then she smiles, and it's one of her sharp scimitar smirks this time. The apprehension is quick to morph into a single hard beat of want. ]
Yeah. The most sophisticated I could come up with, of course.
[Funny, indeed. She's drawn him successfully out of sulking, but maybe... maybe she could take it a few ilms further.
Or a few malms, since it's her, and she does nothing in small measures.]
So... Do you suppose you'd benefit from working all that negativity out of your system?
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But he couldn't quite share in the immediacy of that feeling. Caution was still there. The underlying hurt was still there. The eternal misery was still there, to round out the layers. They would always be there, but he could try, for a time, for it to not be his primary focus.]
All of it...? There's a line between confidence and delusion.
[Still, he knows it's not meant literally. And he shifts to put the mug back down out of the way again, before turning towards her, not exactly unwilling to be convinced.]
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[Her tail curls up at the end, ears pointed back briefly.]
And you have thousands of years more baggage than I can possibly account for, besides. But perhaps it would be beneficial to raising your mood for right now, at least. Or at least expending all the energy towards something other than sulking.
[Which she still maintains he was doing, no matter what he may say. There's also that she has already put prodigious amounts of energy into hiding any lingering glances at him or overly intense spikes of emotion; it's tiring, having to mask the things you feel, and Hades broadcasting out his hurt all the time is just weighing on them.]
Even if just to leave things on a good note. It's true that this kind of thing does not have to factor into that, but...
[Her posture recovers, and she straightens up, looking serious for just long enough to make a statement.]
Well, I happen to be a here-and-now person, myself. And I would be lying to say there was not some part of me that found the idea enticing.
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[Emet-Selch certainly hadn't made any effort to shield his hurt from them, using it as a weapon to not only harm, but to protect against any return in pain. Whenever he slept, there was a break from it- and he had slept a lot- but as soon as consciousness hit, so did everything else.
To reduce it to sulking does get a flash of annoyance from him, and he doesn't try to hide that either, even as he stretches an arm out, to trail fingers along the miqo'te's cheek. It would never be as straightforward as she made it sound. But perhaps that didn't matter either.]
However. As a show of good faith--
[His hand slips to the back of her neck, pushing her forward, even as he leans in himself. And when his lips press firmly against Irhya's, there's no trace of hesitation.]
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Irhya was never a convincing speaker; she has ever been a woman of action first, thought later.]
Can I make it up to you?
[It's a sincere, earnest whisper against his lips when they part, perhaps surprisingly so given her usual demeanor. The tether pulses with more than just desire -- it is also a desire to please, to make peace, and the enkindled hope that she might be able to do so, if only like this.]
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This was probably when he was supposed to acquiesce, to say that she could try, to play along. And the feelings coming from her were definitely a lure in that direction.
But perhaps a touch of spite remained, even so, that habit towards difficulty. Brushing another, comparatively light kiss to her lips, the Ascian shifts a hand to stroke slowly over one of her ears, before skritching gently at the base of it. His voice is soft when he replies.]
Probably not.
[Desire mixed with hurt, mixed with loneliness and an insignificant amount of hope. Emet-Selch actually tries to restrain it this time, but he hasn't had much practice, so it mostly comes through the line regardless.]
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