[Following her back against the bed, Emet-Selch lets his body drape lightly over Irhya's, though he props himself up a bit with his arms. When the kiss finally breaks and he hears her question--
This was probably when he was supposed to acquiesce, to say that she could try, to play along. And the feelings coming from her were definitely a lure in that direction.
But perhaps a touch of spite remained, even so, that habit towards difficulty. Brushing another, comparatively light kiss to her lips, the Ascian shifts a hand to stroke slowly over one of her ears, before skritching gently at the base of it. His voice is soft when he replies.]
Probably not.
[Desire mixed with hurt, mixed with loneliness and an insignificant amount of hope. Emet-Selch actually tries to restrain it this time, but he hasn't had much practice, so it mostly comes through the line regardless.]
[There is an answering ache in Irhya's heart, but after a low hum, she seems no more put-off than before over it.]
I'll try, even so. There is still time.
[So she musters a thin smile at him, her ear perking up at the attention. It's relaxing, and helps calm her, even though it seems like he's the one who could use it more. But his ears probably aren't as sensitive as hers... are they?
Her hands move to slide over the sides of his face with an apologetic expression, thumbs brushing across his temples before tracing the outer shell of one ear. Soon she's bending up to blow a cool stream of air over it, running her tongue over the lobe and then latching the flats of her front teeth onto it.]
[It was a pleasant touch at least, and his head dips forward slightly, as Irhya's hands brush along his face. If not enthusiastic, encouraging- and his hand alternated between scratching her ear, and threading fingers through her hair, down along to her scalp.
Because of his recent experience with cat ears, it was easier for Emet-Selch to compare the two. Not that they'd been any more than petted, so it wasn't a direct comparison, but it was more than he would've had otherwise.
...Differently sensitive rather than less, he decided. And there wasn't as much to work with, though the sensation of her breath, the slight dampness of her mouth against his ear made up for much. And the flicker of tension that goes through him is more of the pleasant sort.]
[Not content with merely that, Irhya hooks her arms around his back and pulls so his front is pressed flat against hers, her mouth moving down to the corner of his ear. She kisses along his jawline reverently, circling around until her chin almost touches his clavicle, then scrapes teeth along the bob in his throat, too.
Slow is... not so bad. Slow is comfortable, in this case. She just needs to warm him up to her first, then maybe... maybe...
It won't mean much, maybe nothing at all, but perhaps it's a good place to start making amends. He's already met her halfway as a show of good faith, after all. Her hands travel to the end of his shirt and then slip under to touch living skin; he'll find that they're a bit cooler than average, just enough to be noticeable without being icy.
...Right. She'd forgotten about that. A pause before she whispers into the pulse in his neck.]
[It was slightly strange to allow himself to be worked on like this, even if it didn't feel bad. But it was unusual, and somewhat disorienting, to not be the decided one, and the Ascian wasn't sure what he thought about that, even as he allows his hand to trail down the side of Irhya's own neck.
The light touch of her teeth has him arch his neck, just slightly, into it, as though offering his throat to her, knowing that she could likely feel the gradual uptick in his pulse. Even if part of that was due to the stray thought of her being in a position to tear it open, if she so chose. Which was absurd. Her teeth weren't that sharp.
Though the unexpected chill to her hands does cause him to tense up, and not entirely in a nice way. But it doesn't last long, and once the moment's startle had passed, Emet-Selch realized it wasn't that bad, and surely she'd warm up soon enough. It doesn't keep him from grumbling against her face, though.]
[She chuckles against his skin, hearing more than feeling the increase in his heart rate. It's just easier to choose not to think about why that might be, in this case, or the less obvious reasons why it might make hers start to elevate in turn.]
I don't think so. Maybe it's just cold in here.
[Taking one of her hands back, she picks up one of his and holds it in front of her face for a moment until opening her mouth to put his index finger in her mouth, dragging her tongue along the underside as she fixes him with a darkly lidded gaze.
[It was definitely warmer, that much was for certain.]
It's not. Perhaps you have poor circulation.
[Just to be slightly difficult.
His own gaze is... actually quite cold as he looks down at her, scraping his finger back along her tongue in response. Interest or no, he'd been incredibly resentful of her less than ten minutes prior; it wasn't the sort of thing that faded quickly, no matter how suggestive she was being.]
[It sort of makes her feel small and desperate when he looks at her that way, despite knowing exactly where it comes from. And maybe she is, from more than one perspective. Something muddled and uncertain comes across the tether, tinged once more with guilt and hesitation, like slivers of ice in her blood. It's a mixed signal if she ever saw one. And it's a little surprising she'd be so sensitive to it, given her usual headstrong nature.
But in spite of her misgivings, she continues to move; if Hades doesn't want it, he will separate himself from the situation, that much is certain. So, reassuring herself with that thought, she gives him his hand back, though not before placing a kiss on his knuckles, and tenses as if to roll them over, but then thinks the better of a sudden surge like that.]
Switch. I want to... [a pause as her ears turn back, a small flutter of embarrassment leaking through to the other side of the connection,] I want to please you, at least in this way.
[It certainly was a complicated mess of feelings. And though Emet-Selch sits up, continuing to look down at her, he makes no move to actually change positions otherwise. The edge of emotions he feels from Irhya only continue to tangle, rather than clarify his own. He sought neither to hurt nor reassure her- only a dull irritation at his own indecision.
At her words, her request, he couldn't deny that beat of want; it was only natural- complications or no, he still had physical form, he wasn't immune. But that want was mixed immediately with suspicion and disquiet. This would be giving up more control than he was entirely prepared to do, asking a certain amount of vulnerability.]
What makes you think-- [In contrast to his tone, the hand that brushes over the side of her face is gentle, fingers stroking from her forehead, down to run along the line of her jaw.] that I would accept that from you?
[The answer comes after a few seconds, plain and straightforward.]
You would have made me back off or outright removed yourself a while ago if you were opposed from the start. And I don't care if you're not up to doing anything for me in return, I just...
[She sighs, halfway defeated. He seems to be perpetually mixed when it comes to her, and it only frustrates her in turn, that her lack of skill with words is more likely to turn him away than convince him. Immediate action would be too presumptuous, but what else does she have? Even if she has little left to lose, she has made a little progress today, so preserving that takes priority.]
If you aren't interested, just tell me now so I don't humiliate myself over it. I don't mind if we just stay like this, either. Tactile contact is supposed to be good for Bonds either way, isn't it?
[There is hesitation. But he was still shaking off the idea that she wasn't out for his blood, and it would likely take time for those intrusive thoughts to fade, to let go of the hurt. And though he considered powering through regardless....
In the end the Ascian shifts off of her, to sit next to Irhya on the bed. He glances sideways at her for a moment, before closing his eyes, and sighing.]
--Then no. I don't dislike you, but I don't trust you either. Not now.
[And though there is a moment of regret, the relief is more unmistakable.]
If I let you continue, it would be a matter of duty, nothing more- and I've long since tired of those necessities.
[Irhya sits up, setting a hand on his shoulder with an acknowledging sound; suddenly, she's glad she asked. At least she knows there's something resembling interest, but if the pain still persists, she ought not to force it.]
All right. That would be the last thing I'd want.
[Her gaze settles on the floor for a while, her tail twitching a little like an embarrassed cat's.]
Can we stay like this, though? Or do you want me to give you a little space for now?
[Creeping in from those dense, tangled emotions, comes a sense of being drained. Not in a good, nor bad way- just a touch hollowed out. Ever since Irhya had arrived, it had been a strange, and mostly uncomfortable experience. It would be for the better in the long run, but- that didn't make it easy.]
...You can stay. [That would probably be fine. Emet-Selch was tired and that made it easier to accept. Shifting to stretch out along the bed on his side, he reaches out to Irhya to encourage her beside him. This was fine.]
[Being so small, it's easy for her to nestle into him, placing her forehead on his chest and raising a hand to take his upper arm in hand. It's a surprisingly needy grasp, but for all that she tries to be independent, human warmth like this is a luxury, even if it comes with a layer of unease. It's imperfect, a little awkward still, but it's good. It's for her.
She can't help but wonder briefly if it would be better to stay or let him wake up alone, but waking up by himself might be more of a betrayal than not, small and insignificant though it is. And it would be a lie to say she wasn't tired, too, for reasons different to his but still mostly out of her control.
Irhya doesn't want to die, either, but tucks her own fears away for the time being to take in his scent, sighing as her breathing evens out and her facial expression falls back to neutral.]
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This was probably when he was supposed to acquiesce, to say that she could try, to play along. And the feelings coming from her were definitely a lure in that direction.
But perhaps a touch of spite remained, even so, that habit towards difficulty. Brushing another, comparatively light kiss to her lips, the Ascian shifts a hand to stroke slowly over one of her ears, before skritching gently at the base of it. His voice is soft when he replies.]
Probably not.
[Desire mixed with hurt, mixed with loneliness and an insignificant amount of hope. Emet-Selch actually tries to restrain it this time, but he hasn't had much practice, so it mostly comes through the line regardless.]
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I'll try, even so. There is still time.
[So she musters a thin smile at him, her ear perking up at the attention. It's relaxing, and helps calm her, even though it seems like he's the one who could use it more. But his ears probably aren't as sensitive as hers... are they?
Her hands move to slide over the sides of his face with an apologetic expression, thumbs brushing across his temples before tracing the outer shell of one ear. Soon she's bending up to blow a cool stream of air over it, running her tongue over the lobe and then latching the flats of her front teeth onto it.]
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Because of his recent experience with cat ears, it was easier for Emet-Selch to compare the two. Not that they'd been any more than petted, so it wasn't a direct comparison, but it was more than he would've had otherwise.
...Differently sensitive rather than less, he decided. And there wasn't as much to work with, though the sensation of her breath, the slight dampness of her mouth against his ear made up for much. And the flicker of tension that goes through him is more of the pleasant sort.]
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Slow is... not so bad. Slow is comfortable, in this case. She just needs to warm him up to her first, then maybe... maybe...
It won't mean much, maybe nothing at all, but perhaps it's a good place to start making amends. He's already met her halfway as a show of good faith, after all. Her hands travel to the end of his shirt and then slip under to touch living skin; he'll find that they're a bit cooler than average, just enough to be noticeable without being icy.
...Right. She'd forgotten about that. A pause before she whispers into the pulse in his neck.]
Ah. Too cold?
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The light touch of her teeth has him arch his neck, just slightly, into it, as though offering his throat to her, knowing that she could likely feel the gradual uptick in his pulse. Even if part of that was due to the stray thought of her being in a position to tear it open, if she so chose. Which was absurd. Her teeth weren't that sharp.
Though the unexpected chill to her hands does cause him to tense up, and not entirely in a nice way. But it doesn't last long, and once the moment's startle had passed, Emet-Selch realized it wasn't that bad, and surely she'd warm up soon enough. It doesn't keep him from grumbling against her face, though.]
--I hope all of you isn't like that.
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I don't think so. Maybe it's just cold in here.
[Taking one of her hands back, she picks up one of his and holds it in front of her face for a moment until opening her mouth to put his index finger in her mouth, dragging her tongue along the underside as she fixes him with a darkly lidded gaze.
...That part is warm, at least.]
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It's not. Perhaps you have poor circulation.
[Just to be slightly difficult.
His own gaze is... actually quite cold as he looks down at her, scraping his finger back along her tongue in response. Interest or no, he'd been incredibly resentful of her less than ten minutes prior; it wasn't the sort of thing that faded quickly, no matter how suggestive she was being.]
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But in spite of her misgivings, she continues to move; if Hades doesn't want it, he will separate himself from the situation, that much is certain. So, reassuring herself with that thought, she gives him his hand back, though not before placing a kiss on his knuckles, and tenses as if to roll them over, but then thinks the better of a sudden surge like that.]
Switch. I want to... [a pause as her ears turn back, a small flutter of embarrassment leaking through to the other side of the connection,] I want to please you, at least in this way.
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At her words, her request, he couldn't deny that beat of want; it was only natural- complications or no, he still had physical form, he wasn't immune. But that want was mixed immediately with suspicion and disquiet. This would be giving up more control than he was entirely prepared to do, asking a certain amount of vulnerability.]
What makes you think-- [In contrast to his tone, the hand that brushes over the side of her face is gentle, fingers stroking from her forehead, down to run along the line of her jaw.] that I would accept that from you?
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You would have made me back off or outright removed yourself a while ago if you were opposed from the start. And I don't care if you're not up to doing anything for me in return, I just...
[She sighs, halfway defeated. He seems to be perpetually mixed when it comes to her, and it only frustrates her in turn, that her lack of skill with words is more likely to turn him away than convince him. Immediate action would be too presumptuous, but what else does she have? Even if she has little left to lose, she has made a little progress today, so preserving that takes priority.]
If you aren't interested, just tell me now so I don't humiliate myself over it. I don't mind if we just stay like this, either. Tactile contact is supposed to be good for Bonds either way, isn't it?
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In the end the Ascian shifts off of her, to sit next to Irhya on the bed. He glances sideways at her for a moment, before closing his eyes, and sighing.]
--Then no. I don't dislike you, but I don't trust you either. Not now.
[And though there is a moment of regret, the relief is more unmistakable.]
If I let you continue, it would be a matter of duty, nothing more- and I've long since tired of those necessities.
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All right. That would be the last thing I'd want.
[Her gaze settles on the floor for a while, her tail twitching a little like an embarrassed cat's.]
Can we stay like this, though? Or do you want me to give you a little space for now?
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...You can stay. [That would probably be fine. Emet-Selch was tired and that made it easier to accept. Shifting to stretch out along the bed on his side, he reaches out to Irhya to encourage her beside him. This was fine.]
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She can't help but wonder briefly if it would be better to stay or let him wake up alone, but waking up by himself might be more of a betrayal than not, small and insignificant though it is. And it would be a lie to say she wasn't tired, too, for reasons different to his but still mostly out of her control.
Irhya doesn't want to die, either, but tucks her own fears away for the time being to take in his scent, sighing as her breathing evens out and her facial expression falls back to neutral.]
Thanks.