[How could he have anticipated even a degree of this...? The Ascian's fingers squeeze intermittently at the puca's ears without realizing, noting only the heat of the skin underneath soft fur, one more point of absolute warmth touching him, yet another note to be drowned and stained by. To suffocate fully: nothing less would do, nothing else would drive the world back--
It was the depth of that combination that finally does it. The sight of his cock being taken fully by the other man's mouth. The softness of tongue and lips, the tightness of Mettaton's throat squeezing him. The overwhelming heat and wetness of it, the stroke of a hand across his thigh. The sounds, both his own, and whatever he could make out from the idol, even stifled by the cock in his mouth, but that much more arresting for it. The way their Bonds had bled together without the Ascian even realizing- shaken by how Mettaton was responding to him in turn.
Not that Emet-Selch couldn't have guessed either, due to everything else he was witnessing, but to feel it as well--
It was inevitable. Being pushed to the edge like this, there's nothing he can do to hold back, no way to stop himself from being dragged over, losing the last remnants of control as his release takes him. The Ascian's body convulses beneath Mettaton, back arching, legs shaking, head thrown back without even realizing it. And the sound he makes- it's surprisingly low, perhaps, and interrupted by irregular gasps for breath- but completely open, containing nothing but the intensity of all that was running through him. Rather than satisfied or relieved, it's a sound of hurt, raw and bordering on despair. That's what strong emotions were like. He's unsure how long it all lasts. He's unsure of much of anything, really.
When it finally begins to fade, Emet-Selch collapses, half-conscious, deafened by the blood rushing through his head, unable to stop himself from trembling.]
[He's already decided that he won't pull away from this at all, not a single aspect of this experience which blinds them so. He's dedicated to taking him and enduring all Emet-Selch has to give. And his undoing doesn't disappoint, though it surprises him that the Ascian's response is so deep and reaches him with such force. Sinking into the carnal is easy, but there's emotion.
Mettaton allows him to fill his mouth first, his tongue still coaxing him to his completion all along the way by rubbing across him until his ejaculation. Which he takes for himself, surprised by the twitches of his body and the taste of his come. It's so much all at once that he sees stars, both blinded by pleasure and blindsided by everything else. But for all this rattles Mettaton, there's far more. It's the sound Emet-Selch makes that would render him breathless, unsure of what to make of this response to intensity.
He concerns over him, that's for sure. He doesn't think that this experience brought him to despair, no, but he wonders if it's by virtue of dropping his guard at all that he'd react this way.
Mettaton is satisfied: he doesn't come to any climax like Emet-Selch, but such is his condition, heavily reliant on all of his other senses. It's hard to recover from that for both of them, but Mettaton pulls off of him far more readily, especially with Emet-Selch a mess collapsed beneath him. Mettaton straightens his posture, his ears bent forward, his attention soft while he spares a thought for foreign matters like being naked and temperature and comfort. He reaches for the edge of Emet-Selch's blankets and draws them up and around him so that when he moves to close in on the Ascian, he brings that with. (Though he doesn't ease himself all the way down before doing a very convenient thing for cuddling — the only good that came out of his post-Rathmore repairs, the ability to remove the too-broad shoulder guards that would have made cuddling kind of impossible.)
With those off, Mettaton eases himself down against Emet-Selch's side (he can figure out if he can tolerate his weight atop his body later, when he's coherent) and, laying on his side, he maneuvers one arm beneath Emet-Selch's neck and the other around his torso and tries to pull the other man into his arms, still deeply impacted by observed and experienced feelings.
He doesn't stop being made of metal and therefore inherently uncomfortable, but that doesn't keep him from pulling Emet-Selch closer to him. Once he gets his way, he twists his fingers into Emet-Selch's hair and presses a kiss to his hairline, humming against him thoughtfully.]
[Mettaton was moving; so long as he didn't feel his presence disappear, Emet-Selch could spare little more consciousness than that on what exactly he was doing. The Ascian remained scattered, thoughts disrupted, hollowed out and limp. It wasn't at all unpleasant, despite the sense of loss that mingled with physical euphoria, as though it were impossible for one to occur without the other. That was... just how it was. With closeness comes grief.
Gradually his breathing approaches a more normal rate. Though it takes some moments for anything beyond the sensation of blankets and contact to register, once it does, he's aware that Mettaton must've put a thought towards his comfort, which has a quiet effect on the Ascian. Small gestures like that tended to reach him.
Shifting more onto his side in turn, Emet-Selch willingly helps to burrow himself back against Mettaton's body. With a certain heaviness of limb, he wraps an arm around the other man's back, the Ascian's face hiding itself against the idol's throat. It was true that the robot wasn't as comfortable a form to meld to as one made of yielding flesh and additional skin, but that felt like a small detail compared to being embraced at all. To feel the hand in his hair, that small kiss- there was a sense of reassurance there, though from what, Emet-Selch wasn't certain.
He's silent for a time, not sure of what to say, or if anything in particular even needed to be said. But there was one thought, which he finally expresses, murmured against Metatton's neck.]
[During that period of quiet, Mettaton strokes the back of his head affectionately, finding it surreal what just took place and with who. But at the same time, when he tries to think up anybody in the entire world, Emet-Selch... has somehow earned this spot as the first person he'd fantasize about, romantically or sexually. He doesn't know when that started. He'd hate it if it came from that moment of deliberately poor acting back when they Bonded, when he leveraged his fingers under Mettaton's chin and asked if his affection would be worth his effort. That was not significant enough on its own to develop into this, though it certainly sparked in him a frustrated want.
It doesn't matter. Still during that silence, Mettaton nuzzles his cheek into his forehead, permitting and enjoying proximity with his neck. ...At this rate, Emet-Selch is going to just keep Smelling Like Mettaton, more and more. Enjoy that.]
Reciprocate. Oh... Do you mean, exact upon me as I did to you?
[That would make sense. And with how arrested Emet-Selch appeared to be, it was something of a shame. Mettaton relaxes against his body, staring off, finding himself in a rare moment of lament. But mostly, jealousy. He's felt that for the Ascian before. But he shifts his perspective into something more positive by will.]
It's too bad. However... I'm positive you can find an equivalent method of stealing my breath away. I have faith in your ability to think outside of the box, darling. More than I would many others...
[Because Mettaton wants to feel that way. He doesn't know how, but he craves it more than ever now.]
[There remained a sense of being raw, mentally, and despite being no longer in the hold of desperation and want, Emet-Selch found himself reluctant to close himself off again. Why was that? It was an uneasy feeling, and there was nothing to gain from it apart from... whatever all of this was.
The Ascian had been deeply annoyed after their Bonding ceremony, insulted at the idea of pretense- because it wasn't as though he'd ever give one whit of remotely genuine consideration towards the idol. He'd felt quite cold towards him.
Even if that was clearly no longer the case, Emet-Selch was not entirely sure what he thought of the puca now. He was still annoying (frequently). He disagreed with the Ascian when it came to small matters like 'are mortals really alive'. Their approach to existence was wildly different, despite both being generally-immortal ghosts. Was it the fault of the Bond developing itself, the sharing of histories, or something else? Did it even matter?
They were friends, he supposed.
The continued nuzzling gets a soft, approving hum from him. Surely smelling like Mettaton is only a good thing? One way of staking a claim on someone. He presses a kiss to his throat in response.]
Stealing your breath... when you don't have any to start with sounds destined to failure. Still- 'tis not as though I'm unaccustomed to taking on impossible tasks.
[Not that he was at all sure how he'd go about it; it was somewhat outside his realm of experience. Though Mettaton had seemed capable of attraction and pleasure, in some fashion, at least. He could tell that much; Emet-Selch knew he wouldn't have been able to react so strongly, to let down his own defenses, if he hadn't felt the other man's own wanting in reply. Why they'd started having this effect on one another he didn't know, but... it wasn't the worst of developments. His fingers stroke idly across Mettaton's upper back as he thinks; the Ascian still didn't see this as affection.]
[He closes his eye, having little else to be looking at with Emet-Selch beneath his gaze, and his room's a veritable eyesore. Even while his mood's light, he still thinks about Emet-Selch's despair contrasting against his want, and he starts to come up with some framework of an understanding, basic and disjointed as it is. He thinks about his loss, something Mettaton only has words to go off of. Imagination only goes so far in piecing together the history of a beloved people long lost. So long has gone by and he's still burdened by it... It runs deep.
He holds him a little tighter with his one arm, his fingers stroking through his hair. He said he tried to find worth in mortals, but was it the chaotic nature of humanity that he disapproved of? He called his people kind, but humanity can be, too. Simply the appearance of their souls, then? Maybe in Aefenglom he'll change his mind... Well, never mind that right now. He said he'd seek a compromise, but it's not something he wants to have weighing on his mind right now, even while it's pertinent to Emet-Selch's despair. Never mind that a compromise feels more impossible than finding some way to get a robot to feel pleasure. If it were a solution rather than a compromise, that would take some kind of divine, otherworldly intervention, at this rate...
Conversely, Mettaton views this as terribly affectionate. He hums at the feeling of his kiss, his ears pressing back far enough that he feels them flush against his head.]
Haha. You're right! But I'm eager for the result... It will take some grand, unorthodox method to find some workaround, Selchy-darling. I'm glad you realize that.
[new name... he kind of likes this one.
If Mettaton knew he were belittling his view on mortals as living and wonderful, he'd shove him off the bed.]
[While Mettaton was thinking on Emet-Selch's inherent misery, the Ascian had focused in on the task he'd been given, latching onto it as though it were some curious puzzle to solve.
The first problem was trying to just find some avenue that seemed worth exploring. Using the Bond, he thought, could be part of it. While they'd mingled experiences to some degree this time, Emet-Selch hadn't done so deliberately, and the Bond itself was still relatively fresh. If he consciously inflicted his own responses, the full weight of each moment, opened himself completely--
But that wouldn't be enough in itself, even were the Bond given more time to fully develop. Only part of an answer, if that.
The tighter grip of Mettaton's arm was both welcome, and a little distracting, his own hold squeezing back in response. Even if he was a primarily metal shell, it was satisfying to finally be pressed entirely to him. Emet-Selch still wondered how much the robot could feel of him, and to what degree. He'd said it had all been completely new, which meant that something had changed in his physiology to allow it to happen. But how could the Ascian simulate something that wasn't there?
...Sometimes, when people lost a limb, they reported still being able to feel it. The brain still believed it to be there, the nerves to agitate those sensations still existed, were able to fire accidentally. And with Mettaton being able to feel sensation now at all, was it possible similar pathways had developed for him, but had no way of being triggered naturally? What if there was a spell that could manipulate those areas, provide a sensation of contact that should've been impossible to have?
The problem then became developing an appropriate spell- which, if it were even possible, the Ascian doubted would be under either field he was specializing in. Which meant broadening his efforts- but that was fine. Emet-Selch only did things he found to be of interest, and this was interesting. Combining it with the Bond... it was a whole lot of hypotheticals, but it was something to think on.
But his thoughts on all of that are derailed entirely at this new abomination of his title. Mettaton's creativity was truly perverse at times. The sound he makes is quite exasperated, a breath of annoyance against the robot's throat.
And in addition to that- not an eyesore, but an earsore- there was a certain dissatisfaction in Mettaton using his title at all. Emet-Selch wasn't used to anyone using his real name yet- only his Warriors had leave to- but it wasn't as wholly unfamiliar to hear as it had once been. Though he'd never give it out casually, there was a certain... nostalgia to it that he'd never thought to feel again.
From thoughtful, the Ascian turns pensive, a more uncomfortable kind of tension present in his body as he decides what to do. It was such a small thing, but it was important to him.]
My personal name--
[He stops, reconsidering his phrasing. Lifting his head from its place at Mettaton's neck, the Ascian's gaze seeks out the idol's. His expression is guarded, aware that this was a strange thing to be so particular about. But apart from his name he had... nothing, absolutely nothing left that was truly his own.]
Emet-Selch is a title, the name of the position I held in Amaurot. My personal name is Hades.
[The prospect that Emet-Selch could have been thinking about how to get Mettaton to experience pleasure on a comparable level by any means necessary absolutely occurs to Mettaton. They're only talking about it, after all. But if he were aware of the lengths he's already puzzled this much of a rudimentary path in so short a moment, it might have been enough to fluster the showy idol who cultivates an image of sensuality and charismatic impenetrability. And without a doubt, it would turn him on all over again.
But that's beyond him at this point, when Emet-Selch's disposition changes somewhat. Mettaton opens his eye and adjusts the position of his head to meet Emet-Selch's eye, his attention captured immediately by the promise of a... personal name.
His eye's wide, and his anticipation's palpable. It's a name, the one that belongs to him and should obviously be the one he's called above all else, but when he discloses it to Mettaton, a whole cycle of emotions flickers across his features. Surprise, excitement, mellowing down to sentimental, warm.]
Ah...
[He'd known there was another name, though it was hard to tell which was his name of preference. Calling it a personal name implied something akin to what Mettaton's always looked for. Identity's important to him, however that manifests.
Wordlessly, the robot shifts his body just enough to bring his lips to the Ascian's.]
[When the Ascian accepts a task, he takes it seriously. It just didn't often happen. He'd ever been a low-energy sort, and he wasn't about to expend what little he had on something that held no interest. But this hadn't been something he'd ever tried, even in the past, with all his powers at hand; it made him curious, at least.
Even as he gives his name, Emet-Selch questions the decision, but- the touch of lips to his own helped. And hearing Mettaton use it then- yes. That sounded right. Before answering, he kisses him again, the contact firm, lingering. From the way the idol had looked at him, it seemed as though he'd understood that this disclosure was something that mattered. If it had been treated too lightly, he would've just gotten defensive.
He takes a breath.]
...I would prefer that you keep it between us. I've also permitted it to Mira and the other Warriors of Light of my star, but I'd rather it went no further.
[Not that it would put him at any sort of disadvantage, or even remotely matter to anyone other than himself, but. He hadn't heard it for thousands of years; even among themselves, the Ascians only used their titles. Even this degree of familiarity after so long- he doubted if he'd ever truly get used to it, but with very select people, it offered a degree of comfort.]
[Let's hope there is never an impassioned public moment where he nearly blurts out the wrong name! Mettaton is terrible at separating identities from their owners once they align in his mind, but he really does take it to heart when Emet-Selch states his terms. The worst that could happen is the slip of a soft "H," or a tease of its following vowel, which isn't... terrible, in comparison.
He's glad to have this name, and holds it dear. Knowing few others have it makes it more precious, even if Mettaton doesn't understand why one would keep their very name, important as it is to him, private from the world.
With one more kiss of his own, less lingering and more like a follow-up for a chance at contact, something of a confirmation, Mettaton nods.]
Understood. And so I don't assume these identities... Warriors of Light?
[Imagine knowing what he knows and not knowing what a Warrior of Light is. Apparently Mira's a Warrior of Light, he gathers, but...]
Who are the others?
[Aefenglom's Monster, his idea of monster. Mikasa's underground, his own Underground. There have been several times where Mettaton's encountered overlapping terms that mean completely different things to different people. Why should it be different that others had their own Warriors of Light, by chance? It sounded like a mythic title, and there were plenty of such heroes gathered here. It wouldn't be great if he found some other "Warrior of Light" and assumed the wrong thing, so he'd rather know.]
[A bit of relief shows in his expression as Mettaton agrees; he hadn't been entirely sure if he would take that request seriously. Emet-Selch had a hard time telling what the robot would be considerate of, and what he would not. And while the Ascian would be annoyed if he slipped up too badly, so long as it wasn't intentional, he'd probably forgive him.
At the question, he blinks; right, that was crucial information, wasn't it? There was no reason to assume Mettaton would know who that implied, and who that excluded.]
Apart from Mira... Irhya, K'rihnn, and Rose. Champions chosen by Hydaelyn.
[A note of scorn at the last, mild and dismissive, punctuating it with another small press of lips to Mettaton's. It was such a vague and absurd title, Emet-Selch wouldn't be at all surprised if people from other worlds took it on as well. As though something of the light was anything worth naming oneself after.
His hand rubs absently at Mettaton's back.]
...I apparently gave it to them before our final conflict. How fortunate that you did not have to go to such lengths.
[Though he still expected Mettaton would kill him and take his soul, had he the opportunity and ability. Emet-Selch assumed the worst at all times, and had yet to be disappointed.]
[Mettaton hums in understanding, closing his eye for a moment while appreciating their exchange of sorts like a buzz. It brings a hint of bitterness to his smile when he recalls what Emet-Selch had told him in his cold anger before, that he wouldn't... survive.
It's sad. This knowledge looms over Mettaton suddenly. Their conflict dealt with each other's very existences, and not both could survive it.
Amaurot, cherished by Emet-Selch, held against the many lives of mortals... No middle ground, no happy ending for all. Truly, his own world was privileged in that regard, weren't they? That both monsters would get their freedom and happiness, and humanity would get their continued survival and share the Surface. How could such an ending come to be, when it seemed so improbable in comparison? What made it possible for such peace in his own world, compared to the calamity-inducing, judgement-earning, and despair-wrought worlds he's heard of?]
...
[Eye still closed and in his thought, Mettaton leans in to place yet another soft kiss back against the Ascian's lips, slow and deliberate.]
Irhya... I know her. [cat girl... He's starting to realize that mortals must take on many different sorts in Emet-Selch's world.] So all of them... see your end.
[And perhaps even see to it.
Time stuff isn't as odd to Mettaton after enduring discussion of Alternate Universes for hours from Alphys, strangely enough. He's never experienced such disparity in time, no way, not possible, what timelines?? ...But what does he know? Still, with Emet-Selch's phrasing, apparently, and earlier, learned, he doesn't recall having done it. He must not remember all that they do.]
[The kiss was... very nice, and he presses into it with a conscious gentleness. Though he doesn't know of Mettaton's thoughts, there's a certain heaviness of atmosphere that... feels only natural to the Ascian. But curling up with people he (more-or-less) trusted was something that Emet-Selch could appreciate, whenever it managed to occur. It was low-effort for high-reward, company in a quiet setting.
And the trading of... alright, this much he could mostly recognize as affection, provides regular little nudges of comfort. Fleeting, ineffectual when it came to providing solace to the ruined heart of him, but something he returned to despite this. And he felt a measure of gratitude towards Mettaton for being able to do even this much.]
So you've met... ah, I'm also Bonded to both her and K'rihnn. [Three Bonds to people who'd killed him.
Between that thought, and Mettaton's other statement, the Ascian is silent. It was still an unsettling thing to know. What awaited him, his last words, all of it.
His arm shifts upward, to bury his hand in Mettaton's hair, stroking a little at the base of the puca's ears. His face he keeps close to his, breath warm against him. His eyes are mostly closed but not entirely, for all that he can't see much of anything.]
All of them are responsible for it.
[There's no bitterness there, nor resignation. It's an uncertain feeling; disbelieving, distraught, detached- as though recounting something that had occurred to someone else.]
[He can't help but lean his head into Emet-Selch's fingers. Getting his ears rubbed, as odd as it was to have them in the first place, is undeniably pleasant. Even more so when somebody else is the one doing it. His eyelid lifts a crack, and he smiles dimly at him.
This confirms that Emet-Selch fell at their hands... collectively, somehow. He doesn't quite understand the concept of the Warrior of Light, but it doesn't change that he can comprehend them all having a hand in it.
Yet, they're Bonded, all of them. Emet-Selch to Irhya, K'rihnn, and Mira. What an arrangement Mettaton came into, a man Bonded to people who kill him exclusively. If all three of these Warriors of Light sought the Ascian out and Bonded with him anyway (and he has a feeling they were the initiators), they, too, must all feel he's worth it. Not just Mira. It feels more impossible yet to change Emet-Selch's fate, if even his killers felt like that. Though Mettaton holds out for... something. That possibility that things could go differently.]
How haunting.
[That's Emet-Selch's future outside of Aefenglom. It can't be much to look forward to. He's reminded of his own hand against the back of the Ascian's head, and he runs his fingers through his hair rhythmically. Though Emet-Selch didn't give him a kiss this time (to Mettaton's slight disappointment; he's something of a romantic), the idol appreciates their closeness regardless and lets his lips brush against his.]
But you chose to Bond with them regardless. [People who probably all possess the souls he said he found grotesque... This is such a conflicting look!] Well. I hope four hasn't been taxing... Since I know the limit's three. Because I'm not allowing our Bond to be abolished, nor annulled. You won't be leaving me, Hades, darling.
[It wasn't much of a future. It wasn't much of a present either, trapped in a suspended instant, aware of what was coming, but unable to avert nor embrace it. Oh, he'd survived the Rathmore's dungeon, but he was still awaiting death. That hadn't changed.
He hums quietly at the stroke of his hair, the brush of Mettaton's lips on his. Did the Ascian regret any of his Bonds? No. Even if it was true that he wouldn't have sought them out to start, the idea of severing any of them was unacceptable. If he hadn't been approached by those heroes (or made an ill-advised bet with a puca), Emet-Selch was almost certain he would have remained stubbornly Bondless to this day, regardless of consequence. And now he was stubbornly going in the opposite direction, with just as much regard.
So had four Bonds been taxing...? The Ascian didn't think so. Sure, he was a bit more tired now and again, but he was still healing. That was probably it. And if it should get worse, if more problems were to arise over time--
--it was worth it.]
Of course I would Bond with them. We are friends, after all... [Despite also calling them grotesque, vermin; despite their hand in his demise. But some things didn't change. Even if he were the only one to remember.] But don't think I'm inclined to give you up either....
[To put it deceptively mildly. This time, Emet-Selch does kiss him again- and though it's still soft, deliberate, it carries that same message from before: the demand to not be left alone.]
[It's reassuring to hear him call them friends, and Mettaton believes him. He has no reason not to, but at least he knows where they stand with Emet-Selch. (It's a private victory for Mira in his mind, even though she'd already said they called each other friends.) He wonders when he started considering them friends in addition to... all else. Even more complicated: befriending these Warriors, and knowing they also kill you. How poetic.
At least he's committed to his four Bonds, as dubiously inadvisable as that is. Just as Emet-Selch moves to kiss him, Mettaton dons a smile. His lips against his are by no means a shock, but his intent, soft as it is, earns a hum, part surprise and contentment. But... it's that feeling again, the one that fills Mettaton with nostalgia, grief. And he can only do so much to temper that.
But he returns the kiss lovingly. The arm he has around Emet-Selch's body tightens, and he runs his tongue along Emet-Selch's lower lip. As soon as the Ascian breaks free of him (which will usually always be his call, considering), Mettaton kisses the side of his mouth one last time before tucking Emet-Selch's head back under his chin with another one of his nuzzles. It's his approval.]
Good. [Mettaton settles against Emet-Selch, drawing him close and running his fingers appreciatively over bare skin. He's... inviting himself to stay.] Tell me, however. If something goes awry, with this four-pointed arrangement of yours. Will you, beautiful?
[He doesn't know what he'd do or what it would look like, but he doesn't want to not know.]
[Whenever a kiss does come to an end (often due to his unfortunate tendency towards breathing), a flicker of regret tended to accompany it. At least their apparent frequency was some consolation, but that he should find this with Mettaton, of all people, still struck Emet-Selch as a bit surreal. Though they'd only met a handful of times, each encounter had been intense, in their own way. Eventful. And progressively more enjoyable.
Although, considering their first meeting had been in the midst of torture and captivity, it was hard to not improve on such circumstance. As memories went, he'd prefer to dwell on the more recent ones.
And now he had his face burrowed against the idol's neck, arms wrapped tight around one another, as though this were a comfortable thing to do. Which it was, at least in an emotional sense. Even physically, it was... fine. He could live with it; he very much intended to. Every touch over skin was an encouragement to that end; if Mettaton hadn't invited himself to stay, the Ascian would've been quite disappointed.
Lips moving against the other man's throat as he replies, Emet-Selch ends it with a more proper kiss to his neck.]
Mm... I suppose someone should be kept informed. Document our poor decisions. Leave a record behind as a warning to others.
[Because has he told any of his other Bonds about this? Of course not. Why would he do that? He hadn't told his prior three about one another either; the only reason they knew of each other at all was from speaking together.
It was his own business; why should it matter to anyone else what he did?]
[His reply doesn't come immediately, distracted by the feeling of Emet-Selch's breath against his neck, followed up by a kiss. Arbitrary; it's not the most intimate or affectionate thing they've done, but it manages to arrest his attention. He swallows, but his composure is easily regained.
His voice suggests that he's smiling. He would like to know if Emet-Selch were in any trouble thanks to the arrangement, but talking about it like he has to leave behind evidence as though Emet-Selch wouldn't survive to tell the tale is amusing when he doesn't take it seriously. Which, he doesn't. He's not going to die from something like this.]
Yes... And I will gladly play that part. We can't afford to miss out on such a sensational opportunity for our fill of tragedy. Local man with calamitous association coveted by so many Bonding prospects, that it leads to his own ruin. ...Ha. Whatever that should entail.
[Rules can be broken... Surely if more than three Bonds was so bad, the Coven would do better to explain what might be expected for Monsters and Witches alike. To him, Emet-Selch seems fine. Maybe he has just the right balance of Witches and Monsters... Or, he really can tolerate more than the recommended maximum.
He really is a piece of work. Mettaton got the hint that none of Emet-Selch's Bondmates were kept in the loop about such matters that might even impact them. Surely if something were to happen to Emet-Selch, it would affect all four of them in its wake. He'll consider telling them himself, maybe... He traces his finger against his skin in aimless patterns, occasionally choosing instead to press his hand into his back for greater contact.]
[On a whim, he licks slowly across the patch of neck that he could reach without needing to move his head. He follows it with a small sigh, letting lips rest against slightly-dampened metal.]
...well. I shall only hope that it will be an intriguing end. I'd hate to go to all this trouble only to expire in some mundane fashion.
[He'd hate to meet an end at all, but he doesn't say that; it was better to treat this as the light nonsense that it was. Emet-Selch still didn't know what dying in this world would entail for him. Was he fully mortal now? If so, what grand obscenity to perform to an entity such as himself.
That he could maintain to this degree a sense of unironic superiority was a testament to the effort of eons. Even if it had been damaged somewhat by the recent ministrations of harsh, uncaring reality- it was one of the only things he had holding himself together. If his confidence ever truly cracked- well. It wouldn't be a very good time for him or anyone in his vicinity. In any case, his arrogance meant his consideration for others was haphazard at best. Though he had a sense of fairness to some things, in others... he was quite selfish.
He can't press into the touch to his back without leaning away from Mettaton's front, so he doesn't, but the murmur, soft and low in his throat, is a pleased one. And he can't help the faint shiver at the near-ticklish sensation of a finger trailing unpredictably across skin, even when its soothed by the full press of his hand.]
...considering our natures. [Emet-Selch adds, after a moment, as he's reminded of the absurdity of how many Bonds he has, and yet Mettaton possessed only the one.] I'm surprised you don't have a veritable stable of Bonds to your name.
[How terrible Emet-Selch's being to him. He has no muscle with which to tense, but that doesn't stop Mettaton's body from the slightest stutter, the smallest groan sliding from his throat at the contact that he disguises as being a precursor to speaking. ...The robot notices his own easy state of sensitivity, and narrows his eye at the wall for his reaction. He enjoys the feeling, sure, but to be so easily impacted...
Developing sensation, even if it's not as fine-tuned as an organic being's might be, means finding most everything worth fixation. Things Emet-Selch does is of particular interest to him. Mettaton's inclined both toward gestures of intimacy and that which overwhelms him.]
Being wanted to death. What a way to go... The ways I could spin that story. If an extra Bond would kill you, which it won't.
[Mettaton, perhaps one of the very few people who would unironically agree that a mundane end is something worth avoiding by virtue of it being insignificant or unworthy.
Enjoying the way that Emet-Selch responds to his touch, endearing to it even, it takes him slightly off-guard that he'd ask about his Bonds. Mettaton is great at talking about himself, and he could talk about himself for hours in relation to his company, his desirability, his achievements and his dreams, but sharing details about his lived experiences isn't something he does as often. Not that he can blame this line of curiosity. He expected it at some point.]
Yes... I do have plenty of prospects. [None have expressly asked, none he's asked in return, but he knows of plenty Witches and Monsters who are available, of who he imagines would be delighted at the opportunity to Bond with him.] They're all lovely people. But... What can I say? I'm choosy.
[Choosy enough to have gone months without a Bond, apparently. To his dizzying paranoia and long nights in the company of strangers, the crawl of time difficult to keep track of. All so he could continue to spend his days pretending nothing was wrong, from that to his void his magic left behind in his soul. He wouldn't recommend not having a Bond.]
[...That was a nice sound, and the Ascian is a little caught by it in turn. If they weren't so close he's sure he wouldn't have been able to hear it, or written it off as something else, which made it that much more arresting, in a way. As though being treated to small details as well as grand ones.
Still, Emet-Selch forces himself to focus (or at least, to share focuses), since this was something he'd become curious about. And definitely a better topic than his own (very assured) non-death from overbond.]
So choosy... that you placed a bet with a complete stranger over it...?
[...Perhaps discussion could be combined with affection(?). Tilting his head this time, he runs his tongue along the underside of Mettaton's jaw before continuing, voice soft.]
Not that I'm criticizing your choice, of course. [A trace smug; Emet-Selch held the contradictory conviction that he was the finest choice someone could make, as well as an absolutely terrible one.] And I admit to being a bit flattered... but why?
[Not just why him, but why no one else before him? How could he be choosy and seemingly arbitrary? The Ascian had seen a bit of what a lack of Bond does to people, at least to witches, and he can't imagine a monster having a better time of it. He wasn't sure how long Mettaton had been in the city, though- but judging from his rabbitine features, he estimated it was at least as long as himself, if not more. Long enough to feel the lack.]
[Two moves is enough to rekindle Mettaton's taste for him, as if it had ever been sated. He shudders; how is he supposed to focus? And does he really need it? Focusing would mean that he was attempting to keep a story straight, and he's not sure he should even bother with that with the Ascian, his very own Bonded. His voice is low, a playful warning while he's supposed to be talking.]
You... Trying to fluster me so soon?
[He taps his finger against Emet-Selch's back like an extension of his warning, not that there appears to be any repercussions.
For all others, Mettaton has a perfect number of reasons he Bonded with Emet-Selch: "He needs somebody positive and charming like me in his life!! Don't you agree??" "What's winning a bet if it has no consequence for the loser...? I'm perfectly suited to being dreamy, AND nightmarish." And, his favorite ridiculous line: "Simple. He has nice eyebrows." These kinds of superficial replies would be enough to satisfy others, or at least to shock them into acceptance. They're not... false, eccentric as Mettaton's tastes are, but they're not his reasons.
Two arrogant personalities in one bed.]
Winning my exclusive attentions... Feeling flattered is natural! But it's your own fault, beautiful. I can't Bond with somebody who can't figure me out on their own! Which you did, in one conversation. I like how sharp you are, in more than just your wit. [Good thing that Emet-Selch can't see the way he still looks around uncomfortably in the dark, even though he already knows.] I'd hate for some mechanic of a Bond to be the reason somebody knows I'm a ghost. I can't have others knowing, whether they're a human, artificial intelligence, or... a miqo'te. [That's what Irhya called herself.] That's my secret.
[One reason. There are many, but a lot of them have come up during their Bond; he'll focus on the motivating factors. He holds tight.]
Besides. Even I can be a little sentimental, and find comfort in the familiar. ...Your stubborn resignation and melancholy are... nostalgic. Don't get me wrong. You're not at all like anybody I've met. But I'm accustomed to such company. You're much my opposite, and I like that.
[Those are all true, and far more of the reasons he felt compelled to Bond with Emet-Selch over mere whim alone. Though that did play a part. Mettaton obeys his intuition many times, and he enjoys the result of it.]
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[Making an amused sound at the- did it even qualify as a protest? a warning?- the Ascian nips lightly along the other man's jawline. How metallic. Mettaton's responsiveness remained appealing, and he couldn't deny feeling a degree more alert in response. There was a lot to pay attention to, between contact and conversation.
When he'd formed his other Bonds, Emet-Selch had asked them the why of it beforehand. Had wanted to satisfy any suggestion that it had involved anything like pity or desperation. Their reasons had been acceptable, so he agreed.
It was a bit backwards to hear Mettaton's explanation- both for why the Ascian had felt an appropriate choice, as well as why he'd avoided Bonding so deliberately- long after the fact, but even that felt natural somehow. Nothing else about their combination was conventional; why not go from torture, to the tying of souls together- and only then get into the tragic backstories and explanations for why?
But comfort in the familiar is something Emet-Selch could entirely understand. To find an echo of a similar dynamic in some foreign place....]
Hm... so you're used to attracting the despairing and dissatisfied? You do seem accustomed to dealing with us.
[And even though he'd had little say in choosing this Bond to start, the Ascian can also understand not wanting personal details to come out because of some sort of tether. Though he'd yet to experience it for himself even with his older Bonds, he'd heard that beyond the sharing of emotions, there was the sharing of memories. So Emet-Selch was a bit relieved to have found Mettaton to be more congenial for long-term associations than first impressions had provided. He would've despised someone learning of Amaurot or his name without having a choice in the matter.
So while he still didn't understand why Mettaton was so reticent about being a ghost, he could understand that it was something he wanted to hide. That it was a private detail, not information anyone deserved access to. Shifting a hand, the Ascian's fingers rub slowly at the back of the puca's neck as he considers this. To have guessed at something so personal... Mettaton hadn't seemed offended or upset when he'd figured it out. Was it because he was something of a ghost himself?]
Still, I suppose we balance one another to a degree... [A low sigh, warm against his neck.] You'll soon have me convinced this was a good idea.
[Metallic, but at least pliant, for the sake of neck flexibility. But it's not as much give as a person would have, with metal immediately underneath. He can detect a sharper sensation of teeth, and he narrows his eye, bites down on his tongue, and swallows again. Deliberately defying him to get a rise out of him, is that how he's going to play? He won't forget.]
I fancy myself a pleasure for all personality types. But... Yes. Those I grew closest to trend gloomy, against all odds. I might even call it comfortable for me.
[Claiming that it was Emet-Selch's personality that drove him to want to pursue a Bond with him sounds awfully sentimental... Much more so than the practicality of not wanting people to see his memories, he realizes. But he's being candid.
He imagines many people would find having their memories shared to be uncomfortable, no matter how inconsequential. He couldn't tell when the possibility of memory-sharing might begin in a Bond, and it wasn't something he was about to risk with those he associated with, in case they caught a glimpse of something beyond his new robotic life and had their view of him altered. He didn't think they'd understand much of anything about it.
Though he got after him for amorous advances against his neck, the sigh isn't faulted. It's still a reminder of his closeness, and Mettaton closes his eye with a short, pleasant hum, bowing his head forward just a touch to express his appreciation for the Ascian's fingers against his neck. His long ears flatten again, though purely in relaxation. This seems to startle him for a moment, before relaxing again; he's still not used to the feeling of having long rabbit ears emote for him. Mettaton smiles, twirling his finger in Emet-Selch's hair to make short spirals between combing through it. His hand wanders just so that he's able to curl his fingers about Emet-Selch's waist, which he does with a slight pressure.]
I recall having suggested that this dynamic of ours would be part of the allure! I'm glad you've come to share my perspective. [He kisses the top of his head with a grin.] Opposites attract, and all. Haha.
[It was an interesting texture, at least, different than skin and lacking a pulse. There's a small drag of teeth towards neck, where the Ascian sucks, very briefly, at the center of Mettaton's throat before answering, as though he weren't trying to distract him at all.]
--I imagine we can be quite restful, if one can accept the more depressive aspects. ...Although, I'll say that I've experienced the same phenomena. In reverse, obviously- but those I knew best were the obnoxiously sociable type.
[He says it like it's a bad thing, even as his hand continues its exploration of Mettaton's neck. There's an alternation of pressures; the light drag of a nail, a firmer rubbing with the pads of his fingers, a gentle stroke with the whole of his hand, from the top of his neck down towards his shoulder. Even as he notes the puca's responses, Emet-Selch wondered about seeking this sort of dynamic, on either side of it. It was one thing to speak of balance, but it seemed as though it should bring nothing but frustration.
Not that frustration didn't exist, but it wasn't the whole of it.
Though possessing just a cheerful demeanor wasn't enough, Emet-Selch was certain of that much. Plenty of people were friendly with no substance. A superficial shell that covered far worse traits- or nothing at all. The Ascian had no patience for that. That there was something there besides a teasing chattiness- that was crucial, annoying, and appealing.
He still huffs a little on general principle at the kiss to his head; such an affectionate sort of gesture, and what were those for? Nevermind that they'd been cuddling for some time. Or the quietly pleased noise he finds himself making at the attention to his hair, the small grip to his waist.]
I wouldn't go so far as to call it allure... but you're occasionally more tolerable than I initially believed.
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It was the depth of that combination that finally does it. The sight of his cock being taken fully by the other man's mouth. The softness of tongue and lips, the tightness of Mettaton's throat squeezing him. The overwhelming heat and wetness of it, the stroke of a hand across his thigh. The sounds, both his own, and whatever he could make out from the idol, even stifled by the cock in his mouth, but that much more arresting for it. The way their Bonds had bled together without the Ascian even realizing- shaken by how Mettaton was responding to him in turn.
Not that Emet-Selch couldn't have guessed either, due to everything else he was witnessing, but to feel it as well--
It was inevitable. Being pushed to the edge like this, there's nothing he can do to hold back, no way to stop himself from being dragged over, losing the last remnants of control as his release takes him. The Ascian's body convulses beneath Mettaton, back arching, legs shaking, head thrown back without even realizing it. And the sound he makes- it's surprisingly low, perhaps, and interrupted by irregular gasps for breath- but completely open, containing nothing but the intensity of all that was running through him. Rather than satisfied or relieved, it's a sound of hurt, raw and bordering on despair. That's what strong emotions were like. He's unsure how long it all lasts. He's unsure of much of anything, really.
When it finally begins to fade, Emet-Selch collapses, half-conscious, deafened by the blood rushing through his head, unable to stop himself from trembling.]
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Mettaton allows him to fill his mouth first, his tongue still coaxing him to his completion all along the way by rubbing across him until his ejaculation. Which he takes for himself, surprised by the twitches of his body and the taste of his come. It's so much all at once that he sees stars, both blinded by pleasure and blindsided by everything else. But for all this rattles Mettaton, there's far more. It's the sound Emet-Selch makes that would render him breathless, unsure of what to make of this response to intensity.
He concerns over him, that's for sure. He doesn't think that this experience brought him to despair, no, but he wonders if it's by virtue of dropping his guard at all that he'd react this way.
Mettaton is satisfied: he doesn't come to any climax like Emet-Selch, but such is his condition, heavily reliant on all of his other senses. It's hard to recover from that for both of them, but Mettaton pulls off of him far more readily, especially with Emet-Selch a mess collapsed beneath him. Mettaton straightens his posture, his ears bent forward, his attention soft while he spares a thought for foreign matters like being naked and temperature and comfort. He reaches for the edge of Emet-Selch's blankets and draws them up and around him so that when he moves to close in on the Ascian, he brings that with. (Though he doesn't ease himself all the way down before doing a very convenient thing for cuddling — the only good that came out of his post-Rathmore repairs, the ability to remove the too-broad shoulder guards that would have made cuddling kind of impossible.)
With those off, Mettaton eases himself down against Emet-Selch's side (he can figure out if he can tolerate his weight atop his body later, when he's coherent) and, laying on his side, he maneuvers one arm beneath Emet-Selch's neck and the other around his torso and tries to pull the other man into his arms, still deeply impacted by observed and experienced feelings.
He doesn't stop being made of metal and therefore inherently uncomfortable, but that doesn't keep him from pulling Emet-Selch closer to him. Once he gets his way, he twists his fingers into Emet-Selch's hair and presses a kiss to his hairline, humming against him thoughtfully.]
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Gradually his breathing approaches a more normal rate. Though it takes some moments for anything beyond the sensation of blankets and contact to register, once it does, he's aware that Mettaton must've put a thought towards his comfort, which has a quiet effect on the Ascian. Small gestures like that tended to reach him.
Shifting more onto his side in turn, Emet-Selch willingly helps to burrow himself back against Mettaton's body. With a certain heaviness of limb, he wraps an arm around the other man's back, the Ascian's face hiding itself against the idol's throat. It was true that the robot wasn't as comfortable a form to meld to as one made of yielding flesh and additional skin, but that felt like a small detail compared to being embraced at all. To feel the hand in his hair, that small kiss- there was a sense of reassurance there, though from what, Emet-Selch wasn't certain.
He's silent for a time, not sure of what to say, or if anything in particular even needed to be said. But there was one thought, which he finally expresses, murmured against Metatton's neck.]
...'Tis a pity... that I cannot reciprocate.
[His tone carries a note of genuine regret.]
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It doesn't matter. Still during that silence, Mettaton nuzzles his cheek into his forehead, permitting and enjoying proximity with his neck. ...At this rate, Emet-Selch is going to just keep Smelling Like Mettaton, more and more. Enjoy that.]
Reciprocate. Oh... Do you mean, exact upon me as I did to you?
[That would make sense. And with how arrested Emet-Selch appeared to be, it was something of a shame. Mettaton relaxes against his body, staring off, finding himself in a rare moment of lament. But mostly, jealousy. He's felt that for the Ascian before. But he shifts his perspective into something more positive by will.]
It's too bad. However... I'm positive you can find an equivalent method of stealing my breath away. I have faith in your ability to think outside of the box, darling. More than I would many others...
[Because Mettaton wants to feel that way. He doesn't know how, but he craves it more than ever now.]
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The Ascian had been deeply annoyed after their Bonding ceremony, insulted at the idea of pretense- because it wasn't as though he'd ever give one whit of remotely genuine consideration towards the idol. He'd felt quite cold towards him.
Even if that was clearly no longer the case, Emet-Selch was not entirely sure what he thought of the puca now. He was still annoying (frequently). He disagreed with the Ascian when it came to small matters like 'are mortals really alive'. Their approach to existence was wildly different, despite both being generally-immortal ghosts. Was it the fault of the Bond developing itself, the sharing of histories, or something else? Did it even matter?
They were friends, he supposed.
The continued nuzzling gets a soft, approving hum from him. Surely smelling like Mettaton is only a good thing? One way of staking a claim on someone. He presses a kiss to his throat in response.]
Stealing your breath... when you don't have any to start with sounds destined to failure. Still- 'tis not as though I'm unaccustomed to taking on impossible tasks.
[Not that he was at all sure how he'd go about it; it was somewhat outside his realm of experience. Though Mettaton had seemed capable of attraction and pleasure, in some fashion, at least. He could tell that much; Emet-Selch knew he wouldn't have been able to react so strongly, to let down his own defenses, if he hadn't felt the other man's own wanting in reply. Why they'd started having this effect on one another he didn't know, but... it wasn't the worst of developments. His fingers stroke idly across Mettaton's upper back as he thinks; the Ascian still didn't see this as affection.]
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He holds him a little tighter with his one arm, his fingers stroking through his hair. He said he tried to find worth in mortals, but was it the chaotic nature of humanity that he disapproved of? He called his people kind, but humanity can be, too. Simply the appearance of their souls, then? Maybe in Aefenglom he'll change his mind... Well, never mind that right now. He said he'd seek a compromise, but it's not something he wants to have weighing on his mind right now, even while it's pertinent to Emet-Selch's despair. Never mind that a compromise feels more impossible than finding some way to get a robot to feel pleasure. If it were a solution rather than a compromise, that would take some kind of divine, otherworldly intervention, at this rate...
Conversely, Mettaton views this as terribly affectionate. He hums at the feeling of his kiss, his ears pressing back far enough that he feels them flush against his head.]
Haha. You're right! But I'm eager for the result... It will take some grand, unorthodox method to find some workaround, Selchy-darling. I'm glad you realize that.
[new name... he kind of likes this one.
If Mettaton knew he were belittling his view on mortals as living and wonderful, he'd shove him off the bed.]
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The first problem was trying to just find some avenue that seemed worth exploring. Using the Bond, he thought, could be part of it. While they'd mingled experiences to some degree this time, Emet-Selch hadn't done so deliberately, and the Bond itself was still relatively fresh. If he consciously inflicted his own responses, the full weight of each moment, opened himself completely--
But that wouldn't be enough in itself, even were the Bond given more time to fully develop. Only part of an answer, if that.
The tighter grip of Mettaton's arm was both welcome, and a little distracting, his own hold squeezing back in response. Even if he was a primarily metal shell, it was satisfying to finally be pressed entirely to him. Emet-Selch still wondered how much the robot could feel of him, and to what degree. He'd said it had all been completely new, which meant that something had changed in his physiology to allow it to happen. But how could the Ascian simulate something that wasn't there?
...Sometimes, when people lost a limb, they reported still being able to feel it. The brain still believed it to be there, the nerves to agitate those sensations still existed, were able to fire accidentally. And with Mettaton being able to feel sensation now at all, was it possible similar pathways had developed for him, but had no way of being triggered naturally? What if there was a spell that could manipulate those areas, provide a sensation of contact that should've been impossible to have?
The problem then became developing an appropriate spell- which, if it were even possible, the Ascian doubted would be under either field he was specializing in. Which meant broadening his efforts- but that was fine. Emet-Selch only did things he found to be of interest, and this was interesting. Combining it with the Bond... it was a whole lot of hypotheticals, but it was something to think on.
But his thoughts on all of that are derailed entirely at this new abomination of his title. Mettaton's creativity was truly perverse at times. The sound he makes is quite exasperated, a breath of annoyance against the robot's throat.
And in addition to that- not an eyesore, but an earsore- there was a certain dissatisfaction in Mettaton using his title at all. Emet-Selch wasn't used to anyone using his real name yet- only his Warriors had leave to- but it wasn't as wholly unfamiliar to hear as it had once been. Though he'd never give it out casually, there was a certain... nostalgia to it that he'd never thought to feel again.
From thoughtful, the Ascian turns pensive, a more uncomfortable kind of tension present in his body as he decides what to do. It was such a small thing, but it was important to him.]
My personal name--
[He stops, reconsidering his phrasing. Lifting his head from its place at Mettaton's neck, the Ascian's gaze seeks out the idol's. His expression is guarded, aware that this was a strange thing to be so particular about. But apart from his name he had... nothing, absolutely nothing left that was truly his own.]
Emet-Selch is a title, the name of the position I held in Amaurot. My personal name is Hades.
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But that's beyond him at this point, when Emet-Selch's disposition changes somewhat. Mettaton opens his eye and adjusts the position of his head to meet Emet-Selch's eye, his attention captured immediately by the promise of a... personal name.
His eye's wide, and his anticipation's palpable. It's a name, the one that belongs to him and should obviously be the one he's called above all else, but when he discloses it to Mettaton, a whole cycle of emotions flickers across his features. Surprise, excitement, mellowing down to sentimental, warm.]
Ah...
[He'd known there was another name, though it was hard to tell which was his name of preference. Calling it a personal name implied something akin to what Mettaton's always looked for. Identity's important to him, however that manifests.
Wordlessly, the robot shifts his body just enough to bring his lips to the Ascian's.]
... Well. It's about time you told me, Hades.
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Even as he gives his name, Emet-Selch questions the decision, but- the touch of lips to his own helped. And hearing Mettaton use it then- yes. That sounded right. Before answering, he kisses him again, the contact firm, lingering. From the way the idol had looked at him, it seemed as though he'd understood that this disclosure was something that mattered. If it had been treated too lightly, he would've just gotten defensive.
He takes a breath.]
...I would prefer that you keep it between us. I've also permitted it to Mira and the other Warriors of Light of my star, but I'd rather it went no further.
[Not that it would put him at any sort of disadvantage, or even remotely matter to anyone other than himself, but. He hadn't heard it for thousands of years; even among themselves, the Ascians only used their titles. Even this degree of familiarity after so long- he doubted if he'd ever truly get used to it, but with very select people, it offered a degree of comfort.]
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He's glad to have this name, and holds it dear. Knowing few others have it makes it more precious, even if Mettaton doesn't understand why one would keep their very name, important as it is to him, private from the world.
With one more kiss of his own, less lingering and more like a follow-up for a chance at contact, something of a confirmation, Mettaton nods.]
Understood. And so I don't assume these identities... Warriors of Light?
[Imagine knowing what he knows and not knowing what a Warrior of Light is. Apparently Mira's a Warrior of Light, he gathers, but...]
Who are the others?
[Aefenglom's Monster, his idea of monster. Mikasa's underground, his own Underground. There have been several times where Mettaton's encountered overlapping terms that mean completely different things to different people. Why should it be different that others had their own Warriors of Light, by chance? It sounded like a mythic title, and there were plenty of such heroes gathered here. It wouldn't be great if he found some other "Warrior of Light" and assumed the wrong thing, so he'd rather know.]
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At the question, he blinks; right, that was crucial information, wasn't it? There was no reason to assume Mettaton would know who that implied, and who that excluded.]
Apart from Mira... Irhya, K'rihnn, and Rose. Champions chosen by Hydaelyn.
[A note of scorn at the last, mild and dismissive, punctuating it with another small press of lips to Mettaton's. It was such a vague and absurd title, Emet-Selch wouldn't be at all surprised if people from other worlds took it on as well. As though something of the light was anything worth naming oneself after.
His hand rubs absently at Mettaton's back.]
...I apparently gave it to them before our final conflict. How fortunate that you did not have to go to such lengths.
[Though he still expected Mettaton would kill him and take his soul, had he the opportunity and ability. Emet-Selch assumed the worst at all times, and had yet to be disappointed.]
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It's sad. This knowledge looms over Mettaton suddenly. Their conflict dealt with each other's very existences, and not both could survive it.
Amaurot, cherished by Emet-Selch, held against the many lives of mortals... No middle ground, no happy ending for all. Truly, his own world was privileged in that regard, weren't they? That both monsters would get their freedom and happiness, and humanity would get their continued survival and share the Surface. How could such an ending come to be, when it seemed so improbable in comparison? What made it possible for such peace in his own world, compared to the calamity-inducing, judgement-earning, and despair-wrought worlds he's heard of?]
...
[Eye still closed and in his thought, Mettaton leans in to place yet another soft kiss back against the Ascian's lips, slow and deliberate.]
Irhya... I know her. [cat girl... He's starting to realize that mortals must take on many different sorts in Emet-Selch's world.] So all of them... see your end.
[And perhaps even see to it.
Time stuff isn't as odd to Mettaton after enduring discussion of Alternate Universes for hours from Alphys, strangely enough. He's never experienced such disparity in time, no way, not possible, what timelines?? ...But what does he know? Still, with Emet-Selch's phrasing, apparently, and earlier, learned, he doesn't recall having done it. He must not remember all that they do.]
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And the trading of... alright, this much he could mostly recognize as affection, provides regular little nudges of comfort. Fleeting, ineffectual when it came to providing solace to the ruined heart of him, but something he returned to despite this. And he felt a measure of gratitude towards Mettaton for being able to do even this much.]
So you've met... ah, I'm also Bonded to both her and K'rihnn. [Three Bonds to people who'd killed him.
Between that thought, and Mettaton's other statement, the Ascian is silent. It was still an unsettling thing to know. What awaited him, his last words, all of it.
His arm shifts upward, to bury his hand in Mettaton's hair, stroking a little at the base of the puca's ears. His face he keeps close to his, breath warm against him. His eyes are mostly closed but not entirely, for all that he can't see much of anything.]
All of them are responsible for it.
[There's no bitterness there, nor resignation. It's an uncertain feeling; disbelieving, distraught, detached- as though recounting something that had occurred to someone else.]
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This confirms that Emet-Selch fell at their hands... collectively, somehow. He doesn't quite understand the concept of the Warrior of Light, but it doesn't change that he can comprehend them all having a hand in it.
Yet, they're Bonded, all of them. Emet-Selch to Irhya, K'rihnn, and Mira. What an arrangement Mettaton came into, a man Bonded to people who kill him exclusively. If all three of these Warriors of Light sought the Ascian out and Bonded with him anyway (and he has a feeling they were the initiators), they, too, must all feel he's worth it. Not just Mira. It feels more impossible yet to change Emet-Selch's fate, if even his killers felt like that. Though Mettaton holds out for... something. That possibility that things could go differently.]
How haunting.
[That's Emet-Selch's future outside of Aefenglom. It can't be much to look forward to. He's reminded of his own hand against the back of the Ascian's head, and he runs his fingers through his hair rhythmically. Though Emet-Selch didn't give him a kiss this time (to Mettaton's slight disappointment; he's something of a romantic), the idol appreciates their closeness regardless and lets his lips brush against his.]
But you chose to Bond with them regardless. [People who probably all possess the souls he said he found grotesque... This is such a conflicting look!] Well. I hope four hasn't been taxing... Since I know the limit's three. Because I'm not allowing our Bond to be abolished, nor annulled. You won't be leaving me, Hades, darling.
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He hums quietly at the stroke of his hair, the brush of Mettaton's lips on his. Did the Ascian regret any of his Bonds? No. Even if it was true that he wouldn't have sought them out to start, the idea of severing any of them was unacceptable. If he hadn't been approached by those heroes (or made an ill-advised bet with a puca), Emet-Selch was almost certain he would have remained stubbornly Bondless to this day, regardless of consequence. And now he was stubbornly going in the opposite direction, with just as much regard.
So had four Bonds been taxing...? The Ascian didn't think so. Sure, he was a bit more tired now and again, but he was still healing. That was probably it. And if it should get worse, if more problems were to arise over time--
--it was worth it.]
Of course I would Bond with them. We are friends, after all... [Despite also calling them grotesque, vermin; despite their hand in his demise. But some things didn't change. Even if he were the only one to remember.] But don't think I'm inclined to give you up either....
[To put it deceptively mildly. This time, Emet-Selch does kiss him again- and though it's still soft, deliberate, it carries that same message from before: the demand to not be left alone.]
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At least he's committed to his four Bonds, as dubiously inadvisable as that is. Just as Emet-Selch moves to kiss him, Mettaton dons a smile. His lips against his are by no means a shock, but his intent, soft as it is, earns a hum, part surprise and contentment. But... it's that feeling again, the one that fills Mettaton with nostalgia, grief. And he can only do so much to temper that.
But he returns the kiss lovingly. The arm he has around Emet-Selch's body tightens, and he runs his tongue along Emet-Selch's lower lip. As soon as the Ascian breaks free of him (which will usually always be his call, considering), Mettaton kisses the side of his mouth one last time before tucking Emet-Selch's head back under his chin with another one of his nuzzles. It's his approval.]
Good. [Mettaton settles against Emet-Selch, drawing him close and running his fingers appreciatively over bare skin. He's... inviting himself to stay.] Tell me, however. If something goes awry, with this four-pointed arrangement of yours. Will you, beautiful?
[He doesn't know what he'd do or what it would look like, but he doesn't want to not know.]
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Although, considering their first meeting had been in the midst of torture and captivity, it was hard to not improve on such circumstance. As memories went, he'd prefer to dwell on the more recent ones.
And now he had his face burrowed against the idol's neck, arms wrapped tight around one another, as though this were a comfortable thing to do. Which it was, at least in an emotional sense. Even physically, it was... fine. He could live with it; he very much intended to. Every touch over skin was an encouragement to that end; if Mettaton hadn't invited himself to stay, the Ascian would've been quite disappointed.
Lips moving against the other man's throat as he replies, Emet-Selch ends it with a more proper kiss to his neck.]
Mm... I suppose someone should be kept informed. Document our poor decisions. Leave a record behind as a warning to others.
[Because has he told any of his other Bonds about this? Of course not. Why would he do that? He hadn't told his prior three about one another either; the only reason they knew of each other at all was from speaking together.
It was his own business; why should it matter to anyone else what he did?]
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His voice suggests that he's smiling. He would like to know if Emet-Selch were in any trouble thanks to the arrangement, but talking about it like he has to leave behind evidence as though Emet-Selch wouldn't survive to tell the tale is amusing when he doesn't take it seriously. Which, he doesn't. He's not going to die from something like this.]
Yes... And I will gladly play that part. We can't afford to miss out on such a sensational opportunity for our fill of tragedy. Local man with calamitous association coveted by so many Bonding prospects, that it leads to his own ruin. ...Ha. Whatever that should entail.
[Rules can be broken... Surely if more than three Bonds was so bad, the Coven would do better to explain what might be expected for Monsters and Witches alike. To him, Emet-Selch seems fine. Maybe he has just the right balance of Witches and Monsters... Or, he really can tolerate more than the recommended maximum.
He really is a piece of work. Mettaton got the hint that none of Emet-Selch's Bondmates were kept in the loop about such matters that might even impact them. Surely if something were to happen to Emet-Selch, it would affect all four of them in its wake. He'll consider telling them himself, maybe... He traces his finger against his skin in aimless patterns, occasionally choosing instead to press his hand into his back for greater contact.]
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...well. I shall only hope that it will be an intriguing end. I'd hate to go to all this trouble only to expire in some mundane fashion.
[He'd hate to meet an end at all, but he doesn't say that; it was better to treat this as the light nonsense that it was. Emet-Selch still didn't know what dying in this world would entail for him. Was he fully mortal now? If so, what grand obscenity to perform to an entity such as himself.
That he could maintain to this degree a sense of unironic superiority was a testament to the effort of eons. Even if it had been damaged somewhat by the recent ministrations of harsh, uncaring reality- it was one of the only things he had holding himself together. If his confidence ever truly cracked- well. It wouldn't be a very good time for him or anyone in his vicinity. In any case, his arrogance meant his consideration for others was haphazard at best. Though he had a sense of fairness to some things, in others... he was quite selfish.
He can't press into the touch to his back without leaning away from Mettaton's front, so he doesn't, but the murmur, soft and low in his throat, is a pleased one. And he can't help the faint shiver at the near-ticklish sensation of a finger trailing unpredictably across skin, even when its soothed by the full press of his hand.]
...considering our natures. [Emet-Selch adds, after a moment, as he's reminded of the absurdity of how many Bonds he has, and yet Mettaton possessed only the one.] I'm surprised you don't have a veritable stable of Bonds to your name.
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Developing sensation, even if it's not as fine-tuned as an organic being's might be, means finding most everything worth fixation. Things Emet-Selch does is of particular interest to him. Mettaton's inclined both toward gestures of intimacy and that which overwhelms him.]
Being wanted to death. What a way to go... The ways I could spin that story. If an extra Bond would kill you, which it won't.
[Mettaton, perhaps one of the very few people who would unironically agree that a mundane end is something worth avoiding by virtue of it being insignificant or unworthy.
Enjoying the way that Emet-Selch responds to his touch, endearing to it even, it takes him slightly off-guard that he'd ask about his Bonds. Mettaton is great at talking about himself, and he could talk about himself for hours in relation to his company, his desirability, his achievements and his dreams, but sharing details about his lived experiences isn't something he does as often. Not that he can blame this line of curiosity. He expected it at some point.]
Yes... I do have plenty of prospects. [None have expressly asked, none he's asked in return, but he knows of plenty Witches and Monsters who are available, of who he imagines would be delighted at the opportunity to Bond with him.] They're all lovely people. But... What can I say? I'm choosy.
[Choosy enough to have gone months without a Bond, apparently. To his dizzying paranoia and long nights in the company of strangers, the crawl of time difficult to keep track of. All so he could continue to spend his days pretending nothing was wrong, from that to his void his magic left behind in his soul. He wouldn't recommend not having a Bond.]
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Still, Emet-Selch forces himself to focus (or at least, to share focuses), since this was something he'd become curious about. And definitely a better topic than his own (very assured) non-death from overbond.]
So choosy... that you placed a bet with a complete stranger over it...?
[...Perhaps discussion could be combined with affection(?). Tilting his head this time, he runs his tongue along the underside of Mettaton's jaw before continuing, voice soft.]
Not that I'm criticizing your choice, of course. [A trace smug; Emet-Selch held the contradictory conviction that he was the finest choice someone could make, as well as an absolutely terrible one.] And I admit to being a bit flattered... but why?
[Not just why him, but why no one else before him? How could he be choosy and seemingly arbitrary? The Ascian had seen a bit of what a lack of Bond does to people, at least to witches, and he can't imagine a monster having a better time of it. He wasn't sure how long Mettaton had been in the city, though- but judging from his rabbitine features, he estimated it was at least as long as himself, if not more. Long enough to feel the lack.]
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You... Trying to fluster me so soon?
[He taps his finger against Emet-Selch's back like an extension of his warning, not that there appears to be any repercussions.
For all others, Mettaton has a perfect number of reasons he Bonded with Emet-Selch: "He needs somebody positive and charming like me in his life!! Don't you agree??" "What's winning a bet if it has no consequence for the loser...? I'm perfectly suited to being dreamy, AND nightmarish." And, his favorite ridiculous line: "Simple. He has nice eyebrows." These kinds of superficial replies would be enough to satisfy others, or at least to shock them into acceptance. They're not... false, eccentric as Mettaton's tastes are, but they're not his reasons.
Two arrogant personalities in one bed.]
Winning my exclusive attentions... Feeling flattered is natural! But it's your own fault, beautiful. I can't Bond with somebody who can't figure me out on their own! Which you did, in one conversation. I like how sharp you are, in more than just your wit. [Good thing that Emet-Selch can't see the way he still looks around uncomfortably in the dark, even though he already knows.] I'd hate for some mechanic of a Bond to be the reason somebody knows I'm a ghost. I can't have others knowing, whether they're a human, artificial intelligence, or... a miqo'te. [That's what Irhya called herself.] That's my secret.
[One reason. There are many, but a lot of them have come up during their Bond; he'll focus on the motivating factors. He holds tight.]
Besides. Even I can be a little sentimental, and find comfort in the familiar. ...Your stubborn resignation and melancholy are... nostalgic. Don't get me wrong. You're not at all like anybody I've met. But I'm accustomed to such company. You're much my opposite, and I like that.
[Those are all true, and far more of the reasons he felt compelled to Bond with Emet-Selch over mere whim alone. Though that did play a part. Mettaton obeys his intuition many times, and he enjoys the result of it.]
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When he'd formed his other Bonds, Emet-Selch had asked them the why of it beforehand. Had wanted to satisfy any suggestion that it had involved anything like pity or desperation. Their reasons had been acceptable, so he agreed.
It was a bit backwards to hear Mettaton's explanation- both for why the Ascian had felt an appropriate choice, as well as why he'd avoided Bonding so deliberately- long after the fact, but even that felt natural somehow. Nothing else about their combination was conventional; why not go from torture, to the tying of souls together- and only then get into the tragic backstories and explanations for why?
But comfort in the familiar is something Emet-Selch could entirely understand. To find an echo of a similar dynamic in some foreign place....]
Hm... so you're used to attracting the despairing and dissatisfied? You do seem accustomed to dealing with us.
[And even though he'd had little say in choosing this Bond to start, the Ascian can also understand not wanting personal details to come out because of some sort of tether. Though he'd yet to experience it for himself even with his older Bonds, he'd heard that beyond the sharing of emotions, there was the sharing of memories. So Emet-Selch was a bit relieved to have found Mettaton to be more congenial for long-term associations than first impressions had provided. He would've despised someone learning of Amaurot or his name without having a choice in the matter.
So while he still didn't understand why Mettaton was so reticent about being a ghost, he could understand that it was something he wanted to hide. That it was a private detail, not information anyone deserved access to. Shifting a hand, the Ascian's fingers rub slowly at the back of the puca's neck as he considers this. To have guessed at something so personal... Mettaton hadn't seemed offended or upset when he'd figured it out. Was it because he was something of a ghost himself?]
Still, I suppose we balance one another to a degree... [A low sigh, warm against his neck.] You'll soon have me convinced this was a good idea.
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I fancy myself a pleasure for all personality types. But... Yes. Those I grew closest to trend gloomy, against all odds. I might even call it comfortable for me.
[Claiming that it was Emet-Selch's personality that drove him to want to pursue a Bond with him sounds awfully sentimental... Much more so than the practicality of not wanting people to see his memories, he realizes. But he's being candid.
He imagines many people would find having their memories shared to be uncomfortable, no matter how inconsequential. He couldn't tell when the possibility of memory-sharing might begin in a Bond, and it wasn't something he was about to risk with those he associated with, in case they caught a glimpse of something beyond his new robotic life and had their view of him altered. He didn't think they'd understand much of anything about it.
Though he got after him for amorous advances against his neck, the sigh isn't faulted. It's still a reminder of his closeness, and Mettaton closes his eye with a short, pleasant hum, bowing his head forward just a touch to express his appreciation for the Ascian's fingers against his neck. His long ears flatten again, though purely in relaxation. This seems to startle him for a moment, before relaxing again; he's still not used to the feeling of having long rabbit ears emote for him. Mettaton smiles, twirling his finger in Emet-Selch's hair to make short spirals between combing through it. His hand wanders just so that he's able to curl his fingers about Emet-Selch's waist, which he does with a slight pressure.]
I recall having suggested that this dynamic of ours would be part of the allure! I'm glad you've come to share my perspective. [He kisses the top of his head with a grin.] Opposites attract, and all. Haha.
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--I imagine we can be quite restful, if one can accept the more depressive aspects. ...Although, I'll say that I've experienced the same phenomena. In reverse, obviously- but those I knew best were the obnoxiously sociable type.
[He says it like it's a bad thing, even as his hand continues its exploration of Mettaton's neck. There's an alternation of pressures; the light drag of a nail, a firmer rubbing with the pads of his fingers, a gentle stroke with the whole of his hand, from the top of his neck down towards his shoulder. Even as he notes the puca's responses, Emet-Selch wondered about seeking this sort of dynamic, on either side of it. It was one thing to speak of balance, but it seemed as though it should bring nothing but frustration.
Not that frustration didn't exist, but it wasn't the whole of it.
Though possessing just a cheerful demeanor wasn't enough, Emet-Selch was certain of that much. Plenty of people were friendly with no substance. A superficial shell that covered far worse traits- or nothing at all. The Ascian had no patience for that. That there was something there besides a teasing chattiness- that was crucial, annoying, and appealing.
He still huffs a little on general principle at the kiss to his head; such an affectionate sort of gesture, and what were those for? Nevermind that they'd been cuddling for some time. Or the quietly pleased noise he finds himself making at the attention to his hair, the small grip to his waist.]
I wouldn't go so far as to call it allure... but you're occasionally more tolerable than I initially believed.
[High... praise?]
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