[Conflicted, over his show of affection? That's all he could make out of this disagreement he feels. Mettaton meets his gaze sharply, fleetingly, and there's a sudden spike in the way he feels about the other man that can't go unknown. Meeting his gaze then ignites in him all of the fondness, adoration, and care he harbors for Emet-Selch, deeply, disturbingly. He's not confused about his own feelings in the slightest, and couldn't be made to doubt his own heart.
Uncomfortable as it might make the Ascian, he couldn't stop him, nor control him. He feels not burdened by this, but light, a pleasant and electrifying energy.
But there are other matters he cares to tend to than his heart, and just as quickly, the robot changes gears and averts his hard stare for long enough to blink. Pressed under him and hardly able to conjure the words, Mettaton hums, elated to have Emet-Selch right where he wants him. The look in his eye is satisfied and deeply wanting, his hands squeezing the other man's shoulders once as he runs them down his biceps then slides them against his sides. There's a spike in pleasure at the mere sight and sensation of it, the beginnings of an automatic reflex. He can feel him shudder beneath him, and he wishes he could have had his throat close to his lips when he made that noise.
The Puca leans down to press a short kiss against his lips, and replies against him in kind.]
No. But... you'll certainly. [Words. He can force his tone to be even, but when his mind blanks out, it's troublesome. Another quick kiss before he continues.] Certainly get what I... promise. And so will I. Don't doubt, darling.
[Once more, he can feel how tense his lower body is at the notion of Emet-Selch's erection so close. He recalls the odd sensation he had before of feeling like he'd be missing something upon being separated from him the last time they got so intimate, and that much feels true all over again. Experimentally, Mettaton wraps his thighs loosely about his erection, just enough so Emet-Selch's made to feel him but with no exact pressure.
It's a good thing Mettaton's finished talking already, because it's all he can do to swallow down a noise as he lets his head hang toward the Ascian's shoulder at the impact the sensation has on him. Naturally, for such a feeling to rattle him on a mindful level, his body responds in kind: he can't help it when his thighs tense, enclose him with more pressure despite his wishes, and he presses his face into his neck to stifle a moan again. Biting into his neck helps somewhat, and Mettaton hisses.]
[If he hadn't been having trouble breathing before, meeting Mettaton's eye like that, feeling those emotions wash over him would've been more than enough to suffocate him, regardless of circumstance. As unguarded as he was, it hit very hard, and if it hadn't been for the security of being pressed down, oddly enough, he might even have panicked from it. The Ascian was still rendered dizzy, pulse thready.
He didn't want to think about it. Couldn't; even those small kisses help to snap his focus back onto something else, and he leans into them with all the concentration he can muster. Mettaton's voice registers more than his words, which take Emet-Selch a few extra moments to go back and decipher, still caught between sound and the taste of his lips. The way Mettaton's hands moved over him, his own body attempting to twitch or lean into any and all points of contact.
Underlying it all is the pulsing ache from his erection, so stiff that he finds himself gasping anew at only having his cock so gently held between Mettaton's thighs, unable to prevent his hips from shuddering upwards. But there's little he could achieve of his own accord, other than spark a more insistent want in him. The sort of thing he could bury himself in, and he moans more loudly, remembering the way the idol's strangely muscular legs had squeezed around his cock the last time.
As though spurred on by that memory, he feels the tensing of Mettaton's thighs around his length once more, and his breathing quickly sharpens. His hips still struggle to rub further against the twitches of the other man's thighs, as his body as a whole presses up, desperate for ever more of him.
Emet-Selch's hands dig in to Mettaton's back when he feels that bite sink into his neck, shivering hard. Pressing his head against Mettaton's, his eyes are tightly shut, lips slightly parted as he begins to pant. Another mark for the collection, he suspected, each one as valuable as the last.]
[As if he thought he'd crested that feeling of satisfaction before, Emet-Selch's full-bodied response is entirely too erotic. He squirms, forcing his thighs together around Emet-Selch's length, which only startles him into stuttering against the other man's throat. His figure writhing beneath his weight is intoxicating, and Mettaton's hands drift down to anchor his thumbs against Emet-Selch's hips, fingers digging into the soft tissue as far behind as he can manage with his back pressed against the bed.
To take more of his Bonded, and to give as much in return... Mettaton takes greater control of Emet-Selch's pleasure, curving his back just enough to give Emet-Selch some freedom to thrust against the twitching of his thighs. He deiberately loosens and exerts pressure between his legs in unpredictable rhythm. This is his chance to move, though it's short-lived. It's not long before the robot comes back down upon him to take away that freedom, pinning him into place with more intent than ever, pressing his trembling thighs together with a hiss. It's only natural that by this point, his body, wanting as he is, is wracked with unintentional response: for each twitch and each sound given by Emet-Selch, his body responds with immediacy, systematic in his feedback.
Mettaton moves from sucking and biting at his neck to kissing him deeply, flicking his tongue out to signal his desires before sliding between his lips. He controls him utterly from above him. If he could render him truly breathless all over again, he feels certain that he'd lose his mind to oblivion. Already, with the Ascian panting, he's off to a good start. One of his hands drift from his hips to thread into this hair, starting from that shock of white and pushing back, mussing it up worse than before.
Time for dreadful feelings, which Mettaton views as anything but. His adoration for the Ascian is immense, his desire to see his mind blown immeasurable. His behavior is flippant, usually, but when the Puca pulls him in, closer and closer, the depths of Emet-Selch's sentiment never fail to surprise Mettaton. He's terribly vulnerable like this, and he wouldn't have it any other way. He sighs by noise into their kiss, overwhelmed and content. Mettaton could drown in the satisfaction his Bonded brings him, or he could see himself drowning in his sentiment, and he'd be content either way. Neither daunt him. As always, he can be vulnerable to his heart's content beneath Mettaton's weight. He welcomes it.
When he pulls back to give Emet-Selch a moment for air, he gives him only enough before coming back down upon him with a moan in his throat, nipping at his lower lip and lifting again, then treating him to yet another kiss, three of varying intensity in a row.]
[The sudden ability to move has him feeling weightless, thrusting almost helplessly against Mettaton's thighs, unable to find any sort of rhythm himself, aching terribly from each drag of friction. And when he's rendered helpless to move, Mettaton bearing down on him again, his hips continuing to twitch, the Ascian's body shuddering into the mattress. His moaning was sharp but ever quieter as he loses ever more desire, much less opportunity, to draw a proper breath.
The kissing certainly did not help in that regard, his small noises further stifled by Mettaton's tongue, swallowed up by their mouths, and Emet-Selch makes no attempt to counter this. Even the smaller moments, the brush to his hair, the sound of a sigh, it all added up, it would all bury him.
Drowing, suffocation, the sense of being crushed; he had no word to describe the feelings that wasn't a negative one, that wasn't ultimately fatal. And yet to stop was impossible, to want to, unthinkable.
...It reminded him a little of being tempered.
And how welcome this futility was. How miserable he was, with ever more of it dragged to the surface with such openness. There was thousands of years worth to deal with, compressed and compacted, and Emet-Selch wasn't sure if he was trying to bury Mettaton in there with him, or cling to the puca's own feelings instead, to drown in a different sort of sentiment. He was lost either way, the Ascian knew that much.
Each kiss breaks him a little further, the different intensities giving him no chance of adjusting, nothing to anchor to, leaving him capable of only responding, almost harsh in his urgency. He was certainly overstimulated now, in every sense of the word, biting at Mettaton's lips when he could claim them, before losing his grip on them with ever hoarser cries. His cock hurt to be touched, much less gripped by trembling thighs, but he wouldn't have pulled back from it, even if he physically could.
Emet-Selch didn't have the coherence nor the breath to plead with him, for everything that he didn't have words for. But it was there in his feelings, in the way he struggled. He couldn't be saved, but did he have to be alone?]
[Mettaton cries out. It's broken off by the end in initiating yet another kiss, wanting nothing more than to take more of him yet. With both of them so open to each other, however, it comes as little surprise that the sheer force of Emet-Selch's feelings, pure in form and weight and misery, would yank Mettaton in another direction entirely, as if gripped by the throat. It isn't fear, but he feels unprepared, like he's found an anaconda deep in a burrow when he'd already seen its tracks. His hand fists in his hair and the one against his hip grips tighter on reflex. How could he bring them closer? He feels desperate for that, and he's not sure if it's his feeling or his Bonded's. It doesn't matter anymore. Even he felt as though he'd be crushed, but he knew he wouldn't be. He couldn't be. Despair isn't his, though it rubs raw against him.
He continues to take more and more kisses from him, frantic, and continues to rub against his cock with a feverish desire for more. The sheer amount of heat he feels in his core is surely reflected in the taste of his mouth, heat in place of air. Mettaton feels all but addicted to what he can get out of his Bonded in this moment, scarcely able to stop just to soothe the ache he feels. His ears fold back, flush against his head in his backwards submission to it all, his acceptance of him. In truth, he loves his openness in this moment, the insight into his desire, as terrifying as it is in his misery.
This intimacy appeals too much, and he can't think straight inundated by such sensation, fondness, and affect. The hand against his hip traces gently up to his shoulder, where he grips the Ascian with a shaky moan at the feeling of his trembling figure beneath him, the sound of his faint cries enough to make him go weak. The sheer weight of his feelings become pleasant, a backdrop for his bliss and his love despite it all, complex and thrilling.
Both of them felt so much, in such opposite directions. Emet-Selch's disorientation, suffocation, and abject loneliness permeated all else, but it didn't overwhelm the idol to the point of drowning. He grows more tender, continues to deliberately steal his chance for breath for as long as his urgency isn't for needing to breathe... Because the robot feels like his urgency needs to be met with him instead. He feels nothing but compassion and love and familiarity, for someone he's known for only a month's time.
Still, in his unguarded state, Mettaton ends up granting Emet-Selch room to breathe unintentionally when he ducks toward his ear and kisses him against his neck, the place he seems to gravitate to, and he sighs. Presses into him; nuzzles him; squeezes him closer with the winding sort of strength unique to an arm like his. His voice is smooth as ever, low, coaxing, heady, and close, with an edge of his need.]
Hades...
[He wants terribly to fill Emet-Selch with him as a form of claim, primal and intuitive. If he can't do it physically, how better to do that than to occupy his senses?]
[Each response, each sign of Mettaton's own frantic desperation leaves him shuddering, reeling from the sense of it seeping into his own. He didn't think that he would be burned by Mettaton's lips and tongue, but he wanted to be, wanted to take every bit of his warmth, if he couldn't have his breath. And with no breath to steal, Emet-Selch is left with only his own poor attempts at it, with every squeeze of his cock leaving him panting ever more harshly.
There was a comfort in being held to, enveloped, wrapped up in his arm, feeling Mettaton's face against his throat, the texture of his voice. And there was more comfort in that sense of familiarity he felt as well, something he didn't want to examine too closely at all. But comfort wasn't enough, no matter how hard he attached to it, and to him, no matter how much he tried.
When he finally reaches some sort of peak, the Ascian almost doesn't realize it. There was ever sharper pain, desperation and necessity, and finally a point that hurt worst of all, as though climax was something to be torn from him. It wasn't pleasant, but it wasn't terrible either; most of all it was intense, blinded him the rest of the way, erased the concept of thought itself- but that was what he wanted, wasn't it?
Apart from the continued small, soft pleads, it's completely soundless.
As he latches onto Mettaton physically, Emet-Selch clings to him mentally as well; he was still inundated, permeated by the sense of his own despair, but it wasn't the only thing there, the only thing left. It was so foreign, so different that he didn't know what to make of it, neither to reject it nor defend from it. It didn't hurt him any less (or at least, he couldn't disconnect it from the pain that was already there), but it hurt differently, pressing to the rawest parts of him that had long gone untreated, unreached.
His breath is shaky, not only from the desperate need for air, but from the force of collected emotion. He presses the side of his head hard against Mettaton's, as though he could burrow against him further, somehow, disturbed feelings barely even beginning to settle. His hand buries itself in Mettaton's hair, feeling the brush of those pressed-back ears, but his grip is weak, as trembling as the rest of him. There were no thoughts remaining.]
[Mettaton closes his eye upon the feeling of Emet-Selch's release, still not used to the feeling of an orgasm, both physically and mentally by Bond. (And it wouldn't surprise him to know that Emet-Selch is his own experience, in this regard...) But he sighs at the feeling of it, his come thick against his inner thighs, taking in the sensations of everything in this moment. First, physical: Emet-Selch's body beneath his own, the erratic rise and fall of his chest, his hair under his fingertips, the warmth of his neck against his lips.
Emotionally was much more yet. It was draining, but he'd do it over again and again. Now's where it gets harder to discern where Mettaton ends and Emet-Selch begins, though it feels like an obvious rule that the despair and all of its derivatives should belong to the Ascian... But somehow, even that he doubts. It's hard to tell them apart, but he feels strongly his compassion for the other man even through his melancholy. He squeezes him again, noticing the way he leans against his head hard, gasping still.
Mettaton gives his head a reassuring stroke, and he smiles against his skin after a kiss.]
I'm not leaving you, but...
[The robot lifts, barely, shifting some of his weight off of Emet-Selch, for his own good. He gets the feeling that he won't like the loss, feeling that he has a preference for his weight atop him — a pleasing thought to the idol. He takes the opportunity to tuck Emet-Selch under his chin, against his neck to pull him into intimate space, still covering him and wishing to continue holding him close. He can feel the sheer level of his Bondmate's disorientation, and he wants to keep him near as he unwinds.
His leg is once again very helpful in drawing up the covers, and he pulls them around the two of them securely. After doing so, he winds his arms tight around his shoulders and his back, drawing him closer.
He sighs. It's content, and he squeezes Emet-Selch with his arms, possessive and affectionate. He nuzzles into the top of his head with his cheek, reflecting over those last moments where Emet-Selch got so scandalized over the fact that Mettaton harbored such deep affection for him. He smiles, presses into the Ascian with more of his weight again, and nuzzles the top of his head.]
[It was true Emet-Selch had a sense of vague disapproval when he feels Mettaton's weight shift, to have less of him bearing down on him. But it was also true that there wasn't much he could do about it other than wait, both physically and in terms of general coherence.
But the reward of blankets around them was a good one; even better was the feeling of arms around him, and his face pressed to Mettaton's throat. Though his eyes had briefly opened to watch him as he moved, still feeling so overwhelmed as to be blank, they close again as he burrows against his Bonded's neck, as though hiding himself there. As though he could retreat from the rest of the world, shut himself away from it entirely.
And he remains attached to Mettaton in turn, with less desperation, but with no less insistence, as though he could hold him to his statement of not leaving. The Ascian's arm is heavy but loose around him, with irregular twitches of firmness, as though needing to occasionally reassess or reassure that Mettaton was still there, that he hadn't moved from him.
It was harder to detangle emotionally. Everything physical was still more than he could handle, from the comforting weight of Mettaton's presence, the nuzzling of his hair, the mess he'd left against the other man's thighs. His breathing, still elevated, still shaky, repeated exhalations against Mettaton's throat. All of that was more than enough to occupy him, when thought- ever unwanted- began creeping back.
Anything positive, any sort of tenderness or compassion he assumed was from Mettaton. But it wasn't as though he didn't harbor his own affections for him, didn't care for him in turn; how could he not, in the wake of shared experiences like these? And that complicated things. It was difficult enough to sort through all that he felt through the other man- painful in its unfamiliarity and warmth- too drained to do much other than let it settle, uncomfortably on him.
It was a feeling not forgotten- Emet-Selch rarely forgot things, to his continual misfortune- but so buried and neglected, that it was barely recognizable.
There was a lot, and so quickly. Was that why it hit so hard, that it gave him no opportunity for defense? With conscious deliberation, he presses his lips to Mettaton's neck, strangely tentative. Unable to speak, all he had left was some small gesture of affection, appreciation.]
[Mettaton gives him silence not for his sake, but to run over things on his own. Still in a space of being keyed up, not having had the chance to come all the way down from his pleasure, it strikes the Puca that he hadn't gotten the chance to look upon Emet-Selch's expression while he was at his peak. It had occurred to him, but he'd prioritized holding onto him so strongly that it wasn't as important to look at his features and memorize them. Disappointing... but a future opportunity.
The robot pays attention to Emet-Selch and what little he can manage, feeling a bit... proud, to feel him unable to cling onto him tight enough besides an occasional twitch. He certainly had his fill. He runs his hands up and down in slow, meandering lines, a gentle but consistent reminder for the Ascian that he's holding him — something in addition to his twitching to affirm things.
The landscape of Emet-Slech's emotional state is far more dismal than his own, and it remains easy to liken it to the depths of an ocean beneath the surface. He kisses the top of his head this time; takes note of all of that uncertainty in his heart, wondering just how it feels to be alive for thousands and thousands of years to the point that emotions such as his own could register so strangely, and he feels pity. He squeezes him, a more maintained gesture rather than a quick one of reassurance.
Emet-Selch moves against his neck, and it's with curiosity that Mettaton waits to see what he'll do. The hesitance that precedes such a soft kiss spoke volumes, and the gesture of intentional affection warms him over in waves, and he can't help from smiling at his Bondmate with an additional lightness in his chest, humming a note of fulfilled satisfaction. His fingers press into him, and he buries his nose into his hair, finding absolutely no inclination to move from this spot.
...He doesn't feel it should be necessary to revisit a promise so amorphous, but, well. He feels like he had more of Emet-Selch than ever, but how did he feel? He needs to confirm. His voice is soft and thick with affection, and breaks only to catch up with his slower-than-normal thoughts, knowing he's well against his neck.]
Did you have... your fill of me, Hades, darling...?
[It took time to settle. And some things, once disturbed, were unlikely to fall back into place. At least, not taking the same shape.
But the stroking helped. A simple gesture to focus on, and be reassured by, and Emet-Selch even manages a soft sort of humming noise in response, in clear, if quiet approval.
Was it possible to feel both unnerved and content? Because the Ascian was making a concerted effort to experience both at the same time. Because it was comfortable to be held and kissed and even drained, at least in this particular way. And even emotionally, there was something of the same, even amid the sadness. Something that he wanted to possess, even if he was unsettled by it. As it still felt eerie, unusual, dangerous; nothing that could be relied on or trusted to remain. How could he just accept something so impossible as mutual caring and acceptance?
He kisses Mettaton's neck again, as though to assure himself of- something, he's not entirely sure what. But he allows his lips to linger there, brushing over a small patch of his throat with near-absurd gentleness, just breathing in his presence, taking in the sound of his voice.
...oh, that was a question for him, wasn't it.]
--ah. Yes... I suppose. You've taken quite a lot, and given just as much.
[Another kiss, barely distinguishable from the faintness of lips.]
Though- is it even possible to be filled completely...?
[He couldn't imagine ever getting tired of this, ever willingly giving it up, rather than losing it to inevitability. Even the thought has his grip tighten, with a bit more sustained success.]
[Satisfied, not just for the sake of fulfilling a promise, his ears press back down, and one his his hands drifts up to run through his hair — a natural place for it to land, given how he holds him. He smiles into his hair.]
As always. I live to please.
[A moment. Such light kisses coming from Emet-Selch feel unusually pleasant, enough to make him shiver, gestures he could see himself getting lost in. It's only fitting that he'd make a remark like that.]
And, given that... I could always try, in vain. However. If it were possible, you might be satisfied enough to stop. I wouldn't like that.
[An insatiable, bottomless desire is nothing short of what he likes to hear. He feels that all good things run on this: in performance, the demand exists because there's not enough of him, and in intimacy, demand exists for the same reason. Mettaton finds the thrill of being in Emet-Selch's intimate company to satisfy him similarly, but in such different a way where he can have a demand in return. He doesn't have much of that with people, elsewhere. It only goes to show him what he'd spent his years without, in neglecting most all close contact.
So he hums, relaxing, though not to loosen his grip too significantly. It doesn't surprise him too much that he'd come to love somebody so different from himself, given the chemistry he feels from each encounter with the Ascian. Complicated enough are his views that... unfortunately, he saw reason in it, and that's a more dreadful aspect.
Something he could deal with later; he's optimistic. The idol doesn't want to think about that less-than-pleasant concept right now, preferring to think upon the present moment. The closer they grow, the more he gets something of a hint into Emet-Selch's mood, and it feels like something easy enough to break with a gentle touch. Something bred out of affection, likely, and Mettaton's all the more willing to dole out more of it for that, feeling as amorous as he does. Mettaton kisses him atop his head, his fingers rubbing through locks of hair in slow passes. Feeling things is good, especially when it's something unusual and jarring, he thinks.
...Emet-Selch's earlier request to temper him in Zodiark's place, should things work out in that way, takes on a new shade of delight for the Puca, who would relish taking him for himself. It would be blind and unbending, sure... But he can fantasize. That relaxed grip turns more intense, and he holds him closer to his body.]
[It was as unfamiliar to give affection as it was to receive it, though at this point Emet-Selch has no choice but to accept that this was exactly what he was doing. Both in action and in motivating sentiment behind it. And though he pauses, breath hesitating at this realization, forced to acknowledge it- he continues momentarily. And remaining very soft in gesture; even if he couldn't mark him visibly, that didn't mean he couldn't give attention to the whole of his neck regardless, in small, slow brushings of his lips.
Though he hears Mettaton's reply, he doesn't answer immediately, still working on his neck, thinking on his words.]
Hm... an unusual thing, for immortals. To find something as equally as unending....
[Or that at least gave the impression of such. And considering their circumstances were not eternal- well, it wasn't as though they'd ever be able to learn differently.
Which was an unfortunate thought in itself, and he hesitates, then nestles himself closer, tangling a leg with Mettaton for extra contact. He should know better by now, to even consider giving into a delusion like this. But with Mettaton holding him closer in turn, the intimacy of the puca's hand running through his hair- it seemed a bit of a moot point. It was already too late.]
How unexpected. To find a preference for going unfulfilled.
[It did surprise the Ascian to be at all fond of someone not from his home. And while the revival of Amaurot would always come first in all things, he supposed it didn't exclude the possibility for caring for someone outside of it. It was only unexpected. Would he still sacrifice Mettaton for the sake of his people (if for some reason it were necessary)? Of course- without hesitation. But then Emet-Selch wouldn't be at all surprised to find he mourned for him in turn. A constant cycle of people to sacrifice and revive.
But it wasn't as though he'd never gotten attached to individual mortals in the past- and had it all end the same way: with their death, and himself alone. But Mettaton already had the benefit of not being mortal (for all that it mattered here), while providing that strange mix of familiarity and the unknown. His complete opposite in so many ways, but he was drawn to him because of it, rather than despite it. Someone he could be unguarded with, who could withstand him... while providing Emet-Selch with something he'd have to withstand in turn. Things like affection and strange perspectives. A mutual possessiveness.
And on the impossible chance that godhood could be achieved, that it worked as Mettaton claimed, and its influence could reach even Amaurot... Emet-Selch couldn't even finish the thought, it was too much of a dream to consider too closely. Though the stray idea of being tempered by Mettaton instead was... more congenial than it possibly should've been. The Ascian had been under Zodiark's influence for longer than he'd had a motivation that was completely his own; having completely free will sounded alarming. And while his adoration for Zodiark remained immovable, the idea of a similar tether binding him to Mettaton, ensuring that he couldn't be abandoned- it wasn't an unpleasant thought.]
[With the way he keeps kissing him, and Mettaton's body is made to shudder in reply, will he ever let him come down from this maintained state of pleasant stimulation? It keeps him keyed up, just enough to teeter on full relaxation and reawakened longing, so it has to be a sensual blend of the two. It's both gratifying and lulling, that's for sure, feeling his Bonded behave with such deliberate closeness. He offers more of his neck to Emet-Selch with a soft hum, impossible to hear for anybody who isn't already by his throat.
His kisses don't mark him, because they couldn't. But he has the sneaking feeling that he'll be imagining this feeling later on, by way of desire and sentimentality. To think of himself as so vulnerable to affection of this breed, it's almost enough to make him laugh. So he smiles to himself instead.]
Well. Being perfectly fulfilled... means the show's over. So, then... I must be...
[Terribly predictable, all things considered and unconsidered. To think that many of his motivations relate to finding a constant audience, one that withstands the obvious test of the ages and captivated him over the years... Humanity, fleeting yet charming as it is, is the perfect one for him. Why is Emet-Selch right? He'd never spared a thought toward eternity prior to meeting Emet-Selch, and so having his inclination for an unending, thrilling experience be recognized as something someone like them would favor is slightly unnerving.
Or maybe, validating. He isn't sure. He simply hasn't had enough experience viewing himself in any frame other than the sensational present and the dreams unrealized for the future. And that future proves to be vast: exciting, though he can see how it might be crushing to some. There's an entire dimension to be considered about lasting and continuing to be, isn't there? It daunts, but it entices.
He does feel satisfied being unfulfilled and always wanting more. That's the nature of eternal want. Mettaton would always want people to never have enough while simultaneously drowning in it. A person like Emet-Selch who could handle his intensity... It suddenly clicks into place, a realization about himself and their dynamic. Why he delights in it, holds a more continuous flame for it. Being with him gives him an entirely unexplored dimension to living as he is, something otherwise totally different from everyone. This isn't something he could find anywhere else, this person. It's nice.
Mettaton grips onto him. He reciprocates the tuck of his leg by pulling him closer with his own. His legs aren't quite what they used to be, but he finds it nice that he feels so much more with them now, even if they've warped compared to what they used to be. At first, he hated this, but he has no choice but to embrace what he's becoming. He took to it easily, considering he's had to learn how to... move... twice, already.
...Something else to focus on, before this overwhelms him in time. He doesn't dare pull away from his kisses, but his ears spring up with the interest.]
H... Hades, by the way. Before I became so distracted by... you, from you. [A breathy laugh. Their mutual desire is very distracting.] I was also meaning to check in on you. About your Bonds. Since I'm quite dedicated to seeing how this unfolds... How are you doing, in that regard? Any reason to regret your decision, yet?
Edited (when will i finish my sentences) 2020-03-12 02:13 (UTC)
[Genuine and soft, and genuine and frantic: both varieties had their appeal. Both expressed the same thing in different ways, and Emet-Selch was a little surprised at how easy it was to slip between them.
Though he still felt as though he were settling back down from his release, their continued closeness, the way Mettaton shuddered and held onto him- it kept him from settling down entirely. Languid, yet interested, and unsettlingly affectionate (that was the only part he had trouble with). But he enjoys that quiet hum he can only just make out from Mettaton, more pleased by it than he thinks he probably should be, and his hand strokes slowly at the idol's upper back. Attention drifting towards the top of his throat, he focuses underneath his chin, even giving it a small lick, before trailing along the underside of his jaw, softly humming in reply. His leg tightens for a few moments, appreciating how much of Mettaton's body he could feel stretched out and pressed against his own.
It was possible there really was some kind of balance in operation here. As by contrast, Mettaton's ability to remain in the present was- if not something Emet-Selch envied, it was something he wanted to understand. Or at least witness. Even if the idol wasn't as ancient as himself, he wasn't mortal, and Emet-Selch assumed Mettaton's perspective to be entirely different from those of transient humanity. And yet he seemed to revel in the opportunities of his existence, could live in a changing world as though its unreliable nature held value. That the present was worth staying in.
It wasn't as though the idea was wholly foreign to the Ascian. Amaurot had been a very peaceful, steady present. He hadn't been happy, but he hadn't been bored either, even if one day had been much like the next, a stretch of time that had felt like forever. Any problems he'd had had come from himself, not through any fault of the world. But after the sundering, once everything and everyone had changed, Emet-Selch hadn't been able to change with it. Not in any positive way, at least; his past was now his ever-present, a weight to crush him underneath.
Even if he'd never understand it... being in the presence of someone with similar-yet-dissimilar aspects was... comfortable. It echoed the past without being the same as it; this wasn't something he could find with anyone else.
At the mention of his Bonds, Emet-Selch pauses mid-kiss, mid-thought, his hand on him stilling. Though there was the impulse to say that everything was fine- after all, he had no proof that anything was wrong, only suspicions- he had agreed to keep Mettaton informed. And while he wasn't bound to it in the same way as a puca was to their promises, Emet-Selch did always speak the truth (as he saw it; and not necessarily the entirety of it).]
No regrets. [That was the most important part, so he says it first.] However... I have noticed a certain increased fatigue. I don't believe it to be illness, and I'm too far recovered from my injuries for it to be the result of that.
[Though he falls silent for a few moments more, it's clear that he's not entirely finished, and the Ascian ends up interrupting his ministrations further by pressing the side of his face against Mettaton's neck and keeping it there.] I've started falling unconscious outside of my control.
[They are their counters. Mettaton marvels at how hard the Ascian clings to his past while he takes care to remove trace of his where possible. Even the assuming of a new form was his assumption of a new life, by choice. For Emet-Selch, it was a major tragedy that changed things. It doesn't surprise him that they see their own existences so differently, that he himself would fixate on the present and the future while Emet-Selch would live in the past, unable to do much living now.
If the Ascian could learn how to simply be without having the past haunt him, he thinks he could only benefit. He catches him hurting so often. Emet-Selch's beyond being relieved of his past without losing his memory of it, but the inability to move on is impressive, if not despairing. There's no coming back from such trauma, an incident of terror Mettaton can only imagine. But if he could help him let go of it for a time here or there, he likes the thought of it.
The attention paid to his neck causes the robot to sigh and shift his other leg in a weak squirm, pressing closer to him as a gesture of appreciation for his contact. His shiver's enough to get him to close his eye and bite his lip to steel himself from... losing himself to continued want so readily, he supposes. He knows he could go on. Have some composure; he's trying to have a conversation!
For the sake of his focus, Emet-Selch's pause is helpful. Mettaton focuses on his hair, able to just barely catch the darker color of it from the corner of his eye where the Ascian has his face close to his neck. Feeling him press into him more firmly with such an alarming symptom...
The robot keeps stroking his hair without pause. For somebody who likes sleep, surely this is remarkable if Emet-Selch finds it noteworthy.]
Unconscious. [He's repeating it, like it could give him new understanding that way. He assumes easily that this is not due to a lack of rest.] That is concerning. I've never heard of it happening before... in the context of a Bond.
[Nor does he know enough about the science of Bonds to say why this might be happening, aside from having too many of them. He's a Monster, so is Irhya, and Mira's a Witch... the last of his Bonds is unknown to him, but no matter what sort of arrangement it is, that could still be three Monsters at most. Three, which is the recommended maximum for any kind, and having his opposite? Why wouldn't having three Monsters plus a Witch not work out? ...He can't delude himself very far, of course. Having three Monsters to service, plus a Witch, likely doesn't change the fact that there are four ways his magic's being forced. Mettaton's predisposed to thinking of magic as a life force, since that's precisely what it is for him. It would make sense that it would rob him of his consciousness.
He feels a spike of concern. It's a bit more worrying than he'd like it to be.]
... I never did tell you. When we first Bonded, I didn't care to... Though now, you might have noticed already. That someone with a soul like mine might have different, steeper demands. I'm supposed to be made of magic, and upon losing it...
[Someone might feel they could handle four, but what of four when one of them is like himself? He absolutely doesn't want to give this Bond up: about that, a streak of stubbornness runs strong. The thought now is unbearable, and he doesn't even consider it, even if he were the problem. His hand rests against the back of Emet-Selch's head, his fingers twisted in his tousled locks.]
Is there something you've found that relieves these fainting spells?
[Even if he could never move on, his sense of loss a permanent fixture in his life, moments like this- surrounded by warmth and company- could potentially coexist with it. Even if it couldn't change, it could ease, if only briefly.
And the continued hair-stroking was soothing, restful, while the squirm of Mettaton's body was not, Emet-Selch feeling it quite clearly considering how closely they remained pressed. Contrary impulses, but all of them pleasant, and he makes a small noise of approval, encouragement despite the current topic.
Emet-Selch also thought that his current balance of Bonds should make the most sense. If a witch was able to handle three monsters without concern, why wouldn't three monsters and a witch for a bit of extra magic be entirely sufficient? Unless the existence of four ties in itself was enough to disrupt things, that his soul really couldn't handle the transfer of energies?
Or Mettaton's theory was true, that he was a more draining monster than most of them. And for that matter... if he was the puca's only Bond, then the Ascian was supporting him by himself. All of his others had at least one other person involved. He decides not to mention this.]
Mm... I suppose it's possible. Aside from you, I have two other monsters, and a witch. I would assume that to be a thoroughly sufficient balance, but if you count as perhaps an additional monster--
[Emet-Selch sighs. It was something of a concern, but not one that worried him as much as it probably should. Breaking one of his Bonds doesn't even occur to him as an option. Of course he wasn't going to do that. So the only real option was living with it and finding a way to manage it.]
I may just require more rest than I anticipated. I don't appear to have any issues immediately after I awaken, whenever that misfortune occurs. 'Tis only after I've been conscious for some time that problems arise. And even then, it's not... consistent.
[So it may be a mistake to be looking for patterns in it, but a solution of 'more sleep' wasn't exactly an unappealing one. He nudges the side of his face against Mettaton's neck again, hold on him tightening, something that sends an incidental shiver through him. His leg rubs a little against Mettaton's as he speaks.]
...Well, who knows? Perhaps I'll finally take that year's long nap after all.
[Mettaton, too, focuses only on a workaround. He seems to agree without thinking about it that annulling a Bond isn't an option. Even if he somehow counted as an additional Monster, having Mira there should charge him with yet more magic, so maybe... he needs another Witch? Somehow, that doesn't seem to add up.
It's more than likely that the warnings are as they are because any more than three ties would be exerting to anybody in this place. He prefers to think that there must be another answer.
He allows Emet-Selch to finish, feels him press closer yet and shudder against his body; on reflex, he grips onto him more tightly. He makes a hum of amusement mixed with irritation at the notion of him deciding to just. Give up and sleep.]
Tsk. You will not find that year's long rest easy, sweetheart! Not if I have anything to say about it. I will tend to you, personally.
[He pulls him back with his leg "menacingly" before considering his other idea, which is yet more sleep. But in small doses, something he already feels inclined toward doing isn't so bad.]
With a bit more rest, then. As much as like you very much awake... If it helps, can we really deny it? I'll have to see it that you're getting plenty of opportunities for sleep...
[Good thing that when Mira asked for dating advice, Mettaton told her to stay close to home, despite the plethora of more extravagant options. He had a bad feeling about anything else, and this is probably why.
His body clings onto the echo of that full-bodied shiver, and he continues sticking close to the Ascian as the hand not in his hair roams the expanse of his back. Mettaton had never fully removed his clothes, but with how they remain open in the front, he's able to slip his hands beneath them with ease; his hand, having been pressed to Emet-Selch, is already flush against skin and surprisingly warm to the touch. He presses his cheek to the top of the Emet-Selch's head and presses in deeply to keep him as his.]
We'll all have to support your endeavors for more sleep.
[Emet-Selch had also considered that perhaps his problem was not enough witches, and if things continued to worsen, he'd consider it more closely. Because adding more Bonds was surely the direction to go in. It still felt more feasible than the idea of removing any. That option wasn't so much off the table as having never been brought to the table to begin with.
And he's not at all surprised to hear Mettaton's apparent disapproval for the option of 'actually, just sleep forever.' There was an odd sort of- assurance in that, no doubt aided by the way the idol kept the Ascian's head tucked firmly against his neck. While staying securely nestled there, Emet-Selch still tilts his head slightly, to kiss his throat again, voice muffled against it.]
I'll have to wish you luck in that... as I'm apparently quite hard to wake up, these days.
[Just another point of mild concern to drop in there: not only did he fall asleep unintentionally, it was more difficult to rouse him at all.
And while he wasn't not worried, Emet-Selch couldn't let himself dwell on it too closely either. Because if there was nothing he could do, that it continued to deteriorate instead of remaining at the level of 'hassle'- what option did he have? Nothing. Either he'd manage it with a bit more rest, or he'd fall asleep and not bother waking up: those were the choices. Either was acceptable, really....
Mostly. While the lure of unconsciousness was undeniable, neither did Emet-Selch want to lose out on times like this. And if he was so desperate to not be left alone, it felt hypocritical to abandon Mettaton by voluntarily slipping into a coma at first opportunity. It was all more of a conundrum than it should've been.]
Though if you're trying to encourage me to sleep... I have to say you're not doing a very good job of it.
[What with the hand creeping about his back, the shifting of his leg, the press of his body that he was growing ever more aware of. It didn't surprise him at all to find himself beginning to stiffen again, something that he presses with deliberation to Mettaton's body with a softer sigh. Eyes closed, he licks slowly at his throat.]
[He has to admit that listening to Emet-Selch's quality of voice is terribly attractive, and he can close his eye to that as he speaks against his throat. He processes it well enough, the thought that he's not only slipping into unconsciousness with more unpredictable frequency, but that he's also growing difficult to rouse... And it's not good news. Previously bent forward with interest in the tone of his voice, his broad ears flatten with his disturbance.
The kiss against his throat and the way he speaks against him is another texture for him to enjoy, which he does thoroughly, a soft, pleasured hum sounding at the contact of his kiss and continuing on as he speaks. He could be both concerned and enticed, which he is satisfied in——
Before he presses his growing arousal anew into Mettaton's body. He jolts at the contact, recoiling for scarcely a second before he finds himself pressing into him with desperation, choking on an unexpected moan. That easily, a switch has been flipped within him, his craving dialed up, his expression wide-eyed and eager.]
Hades—!
[His lips are parted and he trembles into the feeling of Emet-Selch's continued attention paid to his throat, quivering. He thrills in being shocked; he breathes out a softer, breathier sigh of his desire through a smile.
It wasn't his intention to help him sleep right now, but... Emet-Selch has a point about him.]
Wh... What can I say? Putting people to sleep... Isn't my strong suit. Quite... Quite the opposite, actually.
[He shifts his body against Emet-Selch's erection, unable to stay still.]
[The startle has Emet-Selch startle in turn, his hold on Mettaton reflexively tightening, pulse jumping at the unexpected response. A pulse that is then content to stay elevated at the sound of his moan, at the way Mettaton pressed back into him, each tremble, the tone to his voice. Warmed skin seemed inclined to stay that way as well, and the sudden tension in his limbs has them tremble slightly from that rush of piercing desire.]
Ah....
[It was certainly a feeling to go from lazily aroused to completely hard, just from a bit of shifting on Mettaton's part, from the immediacy of his reaction to him. The sensation of blood rushing lower in his body leaves the Ascian dizzy and momentarily breathless, and he takes a moment to simply revel in that feeling. That he could be so quickly spurred into wanting Mettaton so strongly again (as if the feeling had ever completely faded), the warmth and responsiveness of even a robotic form shifting against his own. To be wanted so blatantly in return; he swallows back a moan of his own by sucking hard at the center of Mettaton's throat. With less success does he hold back a shudder, finally letting go of his neck in order to speak.]
If- you truly prefer me awake. 'Tis. One way of achieving that.
[Though it was starting to feel as though just being in Mettaton's presence would be a temptation on its own. And that the closer they were, the more of a test it would become- though it wasn't as though the penalty for failing to resist was a very terrible one.
With effort as well as some regret, Emet-Selch nudges back from his place at Mettaton's neck, lifting his head in order to seek out his gaze. Something made slightly more difficult by his inability to keep their faces apart much at all. But in addition to the rise in need, there was an accompanying longing present in his expression. A sentiment expressed again in the hesitant gentleness in the way his lips move over his Bonded's face. More brushings than kisses over his jaw and cheek, the Ascian's breathing is shaky.
It felt... fragile, somehow, in a way he couldn't express. As though he were skirting around the edge of something delicate. Something that would disappear if he observed it too closely.]
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He relies on biting his lip to hold back from making too much noise at once at the way Emet-Selch fixates on his neck, kissing him deeply and sucking at the skin over his throat, riding still on the surprise making each sensation feel like sparks. He can't hold it all back, and it comes out in the form of a voiced breath, a smooth, held note that trails off. It's in part responsive to the kiss, but also the sensation of Emet-Selch's cock going from attentive to hard, fully aroused and pushed against his thigh. He feels him so distinctly, dizzying, with the way his body's placed great focus on developing his legs, all but temperature detectable. He can hardly resist reaching down to touch him already, fantasizing about all of the ways he'd have the Ascian next. Once more, some are possible; he swallows at the prospects. Some aren't, as he is.
He pulls his fracturing composure together, but not with any care to seem as though he's unaffected. His smile's a genuine part of it.]
Ah... I. I'll keep that in mind... For the future.
[He shifts again, his body hot internally. It's nothing uncomfortable, barely detectable in actual temperature, but he usually has a sense for it based on how he wants to move. It surprises him to feel his Bonded break away from his neck, almost leaving him disappointed... But not for long enough for it to be anything but a passing look of confusion, ears bouncing up to alert. He studies the Ascian carefully, noting such raw emotion that looks like much of what he's felt from him before in gesture. He's soft, but intent all the same.
It tracks. The gentle expression and hitched breath, the touch of his lips against his face... Mettaton feels his heart swell in his fondness for the other man, and he swallows around it. Such direct attention all for him wins him over, but the way he treats him makes his heart melt. His hand moves down being entangled in his hair to resting against the nape of his neck, the other still rubbing slowly along his upper back. He cherishes it, closes his eye and traces his fingers over his back.
When Emet-Selch drifts close enough, Mettaton interrupts him with a surprise kiss to his lips, firm yet sweet, affected by Emet-Selch's mood as he is. He feels... loved. Loved in a way that isn't simply fancying, but something heavier than that. He slackens at Emet-Selch's side, resting his arm against his neck as he tries to kiss him once more, anywhere he can take him: his cheek, his jaw, his lips.]
[To have his gestures accepted and returned didn't come at all as a surprise, but he felt reassured by it nonetheless. Such displays didn't come easily to the Ascian, and he's conscious of the vulnerability involved. Not that he'd ever been good at it in the past, but it felt like an eternity since he'd even had the opportunity to try.
It... hurt. That wasn't unfamiliar. That wasn't even unusual. But it hurt in a way he cared not to examine, as he lets the emotion sink into him with a hitch of breath, a small pained-yet-pleased sound.
It was the mix of needs, ever intense, yet ever gentle and deliberate as well. With every heartbeat his cock ached to be touched, for more direct stimulation, having no particular care for what form it took. Emet-Selch felt similarly, though he couldn't help but rub his erection slowly against the other man's thigh, just for a bit of relief. He tries not to think about the ways he wanted Mettaton but couldn't have him, not yet. That way only lay frustration, and there was too much else to appreciate in the meantime.
Like when their lips finally meet, stealing his breath again despite nothing about the gesture actually preventing him from taking air. But he leans into it with a small, low noise, and even when Mettaton moves on to kissing other parts of his face, his breathing is irregular, unsteady. From the hands on his neck and back, the lips decorating his face with their attentions, he felt- cared for. Cared for and about, which just sets him hurting in that strange way again. His own hand finds its way to the back of Mettaton's neck, fingers stroking slowly from his hairline down to the top of his back, and then upwards again, the touch firm but not hard.
And he continues to provide Mettaton's own face with his deliberation, careful to not interrupt the idol's own actions, though as ever he finds himself lingering whenever their lips happened to meet. On one such occasion, he takes his lower lip between his teeth in a slow drag over it, before flicking his tongue against it in a brief, damp lick.]
[The fact that Mettaton doesn't have lungs makes it easier for him to kiss him over and over, slow and wanting, though the rub against his thigh causes him to falter in his affections with a stuttering gasp when it hits him with enough potency. He resumes all the same, though with intensity that begins to imitate Emet-Selch's breathing, erratic but still as amorous. Each time he meets his lips, it's for longer, and by the time the Ascian steals his lip up in his teeth, he gasps openly, using the hand against his back to press his chest closer yet to Emet-Selch's.
Without thinking, his hand slides from Emet-Selch's neck and down Mettaton's own body, following his own figure until he reaches his thigh. From there, he strokes a finger along the length of his cock and rubs a thumb firmly against the head, two gestures in tandem: both delicate, but thorough. The feeling of him has Mettaton leaning into another kiss with a dreamy, gratified sigh.]
Hades, I...
[There are a lot of ways to finish that sentence, but perhaps he needs to say none of them: the sentiment is strong enough to be felt through their Bond. The one that clouds his mind most is how much he wants him, pure and simple. Among it are sentiments about how much he surprises him, how comfortable he is, and this amorphous one he couldn't put into words in this particular moment. It's feeling cared for, caring for him, wanting the best for him, and wanting to share himself at his best. Love, really. Maybe he could put it into words after all, but he's so focused on being kissed silly and the opportunity for closer proximity.
The robot shifts his thigh against Emet-Selch, desirous. He gives Emet-Selch a flash of gold, passionate and candid in his craving for him.]
[The sound of instability from an entity who didn't need to breathe was deeply satisfying to the Ascian. Not that every sound Mettaton made wasn't nearly as enticing, didn't keep his pulse racing, didn't send faint shivers through him with every gasp and sigh. And a different, even deeper feeling whenever Mettaton used his name; though he'd immediately accepted that it had been the right choice in telling him, that decision felt reaffirmed each time he heard it pass his lips.
But that measure of feeling over the Bond remains alarming, remains concerning, remains unsettling. Not only in the feel of it in itself, but in the degree to which Emet-Selch wanted it. And while it remained overwhelming, it wasn't as quite as panic-inducing as before, for all that his heart still lurches painfully, that his breathing is shallow and with poor effect.
He has to rest his forehead against Mettaton's for a moment, more than a bit overcome. The wealth of physical sensations melding with the emotional certainly don't help when it comes to grounding him. The teasing stroke of a finger along his cock has him cry out, then suck in a sharper breath as he's unable to keep his hips from pressing himself into the robot's touch. Moaning softly, he clings harder to him for a few trembling seconds before managing to relax just a bit, though ripples of tension continue to run through him.
The look to Mettaton's eye certainly made it no easier to collect himself- and did Emet-Selch really care to? He felt no inclination to hide the entirety of his response from him, catching the idol's gaze with an unfocused, but no less intent wanting. It's blatant and honest, and forever a bit sad, despite the obvious attachment. Or because of it.
Catching his lips again for another kiss, he deepens it immediately, despite his own unfortunate need for air, taking a claim of Mettaton's mouth with a nearly inaudible moan.]
[Mettaton hums into the kiss, sliding his tongue against Emet-Selch's lip before pressing in, even leaning his body forward as though that would allow him closer yet. Closer, and deeper. This is where heat starts to dizzy him, this point where he's sure to slide into that state more frantic than his usual composure, and he finds himself excited for this, always. His manner, so direct and true, is enticing, delightful, like nothing he'd ever known he wanted. Yet it satisfies him so deeply on a level that he's desperately wanted it.
His fingers press against his erection gently, taking the moment to appreciate the way it feels against his body; he shudders through their kiss, and the sighing noise he makes is impacted by it. He keeps his thumb against the tip, rubbing circles into it while his fingers rhythmically drag up and down his shaft. Mettaton hums into his mouth, losing himself slowly but surely to this moment, caring about nothing but this. The sensation, their pleasure, Emet-Selch's ever reaction and sound. He's grounded in this moment, nothing else mattering but their dynamic and their attraction, built on such unusual vulnerability and trust in one another.
When pulls from this kiss, he immediately comes in for another, his appetite for seeing Emet-Selch flushed and wanting and his igniting all over again. If he wants Emet-Selch in all ways, his complete vulnerability is one of them. There's a smile tugging at his lips as he bites at his lower lip, pulls him in, hums with utter fondness when he notes that he and Emet-Selch are starting to taste the same as he slides his tongue between his lips. It gives him chills, having him so thoroughly.
The Puca's hand against his back traces down his spine, veering off course as soon as he reaches his lower back. He presses into of his skin, soft and pleasant, moves further south and grabs at his hip again, squeezing lower and lower until he's veered closer to his inner thigh than not. He's relentless, however, and continues to kiss him deeply, losing himself to Emet-Selch as he pleases.]
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Uncomfortable as it might make the Ascian, he couldn't stop him, nor control him. He feels not burdened by this, but light, a pleasant and electrifying energy.
But there are other matters he cares to tend to than his heart, and just as quickly, the robot changes gears and averts his hard stare for long enough to blink. Pressed under him and hardly able to conjure the words, Mettaton hums, elated to have Emet-Selch right where he wants him. The look in his eye is satisfied and deeply wanting, his hands squeezing the other man's shoulders once as he runs them down his biceps then slides them against his sides. There's a spike in pleasure at the mere sight and sensation of it, the beginnings of an automatic reflex. He can feel him shudder beneath him, and he wishes he could have had his throat close to his lips when he made that noise.
The Puca leans down to press a short kiss against his lips, and replies against him in kind.]
No. But... you'll certainly. [Words. He can force his tone to be even, but when his mind blanks out, it's troublesome. Another quick kiss before he continues.] Certainly get what I... promise. And so will I. Don't doubt, darling.
[Once more, he can feel how tense his lower body is at the notion of Emet-Selch's erection so close. He recalls the odd sensation he had before of feeling like he'd be missing something upon being separated from him the last time they got so intimate, and that much feels true all over again. Experimentally, Mettaton wraps his thighs loosely about his erection, just enough so Emet-Selch's made to feel him but with no exact pressure.
It's a good thing Mettaton's finished talking already, because it's all he can do to swallow down a noise as he lets his head hang toward the Ascian's shoulder at the impact the sensation has on him. Naturally, for such a feeling to rattle him on a mindful level, his body responds in kind: he can't help it when his thighs tense, enclose him with more pressure despite his wishes, and he presses his face into his neck to stifle a moan again. Biting into his neck helps somewhat, and Mettaton hisses.]
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He didn't want to think about it. Couldn't; even those small kisses help to snap his focus back onto something else, and he leans into them with all the concentration he can muster. Mettaton's voice registers more than his words, which take Emet-Selch a few extra moments to go back and decipher, still caught between sound and the taste of his lips. The way Mettaton's hands moved over him, his own body attempting to twitch or lean into any and all points of contact.
Underlying it all is the pulsing ache from his erection, so stiff that he finds himself gasping anew at only having his cock so gently held between Mettaton's thighs, unable to prevent his hips from shuddering upwards. But there's little he could achieve of his own accord, other than spark a more insistent want in him. The sort of thing he could bury himself in, and he moans more loudly, remembering the way the idol's strangely muscular legs had squeezed around his cock the last time.
As though spurred on by that memory, he feels the tensing of Mettaton's thighs around his length once more, and his breathing quickly sharpens. His hips still struggle to rub further against the twitches of the other man's thighs, as his body as a whole presses up, desperate for ever more of him.
Emet-Selch's hands dig in to Mettaton's back when he feels that bite sink into his neck, shivering hard. Pressing his head against Mettaton's, his eyes are tightly shut, lips slightly parted as he begins to pant. Another mark for the collection, he suspected, each one as valuable as the last.]
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To take more of his Bonded, and to give as much in return... Mettaton takes greater control of Emet-Selch's pleasure, curving his back just enough to give Emet-Selch some freedom to thrust against the twitching of his thighs. He deiberately loosens and exerts pressure between his legs in unpredictable rhythm. This is his chance to move, though it's short-lived. It's not long before the robot comes back down upon him to take away that freedom, pinning him into place with more intent than ever, pressing his trembling thighs together with a hiss. It's only natural that by this point, his body, wanting as he is, is wracked with unintentional response: for each twitch and each sound given by Emet-Selch, his body responds with immediacy, systematic in his feedback.
Mettaton moves from sucking and biting at his neck to kissing him deeply, flicking his tongue out to signal his desires before sliding between his lips. He controls him utterly from above him. If he could render him truly breathless all over again, he feels certain that he'd lose his mind to oblivion. Already, with the Ascian panting, he's off to a good start. One of his hands drift from his hips to thread into this hair, starting from that shock of white and pushing back, mussing it up worse than before.
Time for dreadful feelings, which Mettaton views as anything but. His adoration for the Ascian is immense, his desire to see his mind blown immeasurable. His behavior is flippant, usually, but when the Puca pulls him in, closer and closer, the depths of Emet-Selch's sentiment never fail to surprise Mettaton. He's terribly vulnerable like this, and he wouldn't have it any other way. He sighs by noise into their kiss, overwhelmed and content. Mettaton could drown in the satisfaction his Bonded brings him, or he could see himself drowning in his sentiment, and he'd be content either way. Neither daunt him. As always, he can be vulnerable to his heart's content beneath Mettaton's weight. He welcomes it.
When he pulls back to give Emet-Selch a moment for air, he gives him only enough before coming back down upon him with a moan in his throat, nipping at his lower lip and lifting again, then treating him to yet another kiss, three of varying intensity in a row.]
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The kissing certainly did not help in that regard, his small noises further stifled by Mettaton's tongue, swallowed up by their mouths, and Emet-Selch makes no attempt to counter this. Even the smaller moments, the brush to his hair, the sound of a sigh, it all added up, it would all bury him.
Drowing, suffocation, the sense of being crushed; he had no word to describe the feelings that wasn't a negative one, that wasn't ultimately fatal. And yet to stop was impossible, to want to, unthinkable.
...It reminded him a little of being tempered.
And how welcome this futility was. How miserable he was, with ever more of it dragged to the surface with such openness. There was thousands of years worth to deal with, compressed and compacted, and Emet-Selch wasn't sure if he was trying to bury Mettaton in there with him, or cling to the puca's own feelings instead, to drown in a different sort of sentiment. He was lost either way, the Ascian knew that much.
Each kiss breaks him a little further, the different intensities giving him no chance of adjusting, nothing to anchor to, leaving him capable of only responding, almost harsh in his urgency. He was certainly overstimulated now, in every sense of the word, biting at Mettaton's lips when he could claim them, before losing his grip on them with ever hoarser cries. His cock hurt to be touched, much less gripped by trembling thighs, but he wouldn't have pulled back from it, even if he physically could.
Emet-Selch didn't have the coherence nor the breath to plead with him, for everything that he didn't have words for. But it was there in his feelings, in the way he struggled. He couldn't be saved, but did he have to be alone?]
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He continues to take more and more kisses from him, frantic, and continues to rub against his cock with a feverish desire for more. The sheer amount of heat he feels in his core is surely reflected in the taste of his mouth, heat in place of air. Mettaton feels all but addicted to what he can get out of his Bonded in this moment, scarcely able to stop just to soothe the ache he feels. His ears fold back, flush against his head in his backwards submission to it all, his acceptance of him. In truth, he loves his openness in this moment, the insight into his desire, as terrifying as it is in his misery.
This intimacy appeals too much, and he can't think straight inundated by such sensation, fondness, and affect. The hand against his hip traces gently up to his shoulder, where he grips the Ascian with a shaky moan at the feeling of his trembling figure beneath him, the sound of his faint cries enough to make him go weak. The sheer weight of his feelings become pleasant, a backdrop for his bliss and his love despite it all, complex and thrilling.
Both of them felt so much, in such opposite directions. Emet-Selch's disorientation, suffocation, and abject loneliness permeated all else, but it didn't overwhelm the idol to the point of drowning. He grows more tender, continues to deliberately steal his chance for breath for as long as his urgency isn't for needing to breathe... Because the robot feels like his urgency needs to be met with him instead. He feels nothing but compassion and love and familiarity, for someone he's known for only a month's time.
Still, in his unguarded state, Mettaton ends up granting Emet-Selch room to breathe unintentionally when he ducks toward his ear and kisses him against his neck, the place he seems to gravitate to, and he sighs. Presses into him; nuzzles him; squeezes him closer with the winding sort of strength unique to an arm like his. His voice is smooth as ever, low, coaxing, heady, and close, with an edge of his need.]
Hades...
[He wants terribly to fill Emet-Selch with him as a form of claim, primal and intuitive. If he can't do it physically, how better to do that than to occupy his senses?]
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There was a comfort in being held to, enveloped, wrapped up in his arm, feeling Mettaton's face against his throat, the texture of his voice. And there was more comfort in that sense of familiarity he felt as well, something he didn't want to examine too closely at all. But comfort wasn't enough, no matter how hard he attached to it, and to him, no matter how much he tried.
When he finally reaches some sort of peak, the Ascian almost doesn't realize it. There was ever sharper pain, desperation and necessity, and finally a point that hurt worst of all, as though climax was something to be torn from him. It wasn't pleasant, but it wasn't terrible either; most of all it was intense, blinded him the rest of the way, erased the concept of thought itself- but that was what he wanted, wasn't it?
Apart from the continued small, soft pleads, it's completely soundless.
As he latches onto Mettaton physically, Emet-Selch clings to him mentally as well; he was still inundated, permeated by the sense of his own despair, but it wasn't the only thing there, the only thing left. It was so foreign, so different that he didn't know what to make of it, neither to reject it nor defend from it. It didn't hurt him any less (or at least, he couldn't disconnect it from the pain that was already there), but it hurt differently, pressing to the rawest parts of him that had long gone untreated, unreached.
His breath is shaky, not only from the desperate need for air, but from the force of collected emotion. He presses the side of his head hard against Mettaton's, as though he could burrow against him further, somehow, disturbed feelings barely even beginning to settle. His hand buries itself in Mettaton's hair, feeling the brush of those pressed-back ears, but his grip is weak, as trembling as the rest of him. There were no thoughts remaining.]
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Emotionally was much more yet. It was draining, but he'd do it over again and again. Now's where it gets harder to discern where Mettaton ends and Emet-Selch begins, though it feels like an obvious rule that the despair and all of its derivatives should belong to the Ascian... But somehow, even that he doubts. It's hard to tell them apart, but he feels strongly his compassion for the other man even through his melancholy. He squeezes him again, noticing the way he leans against his head hard, gasping still.
Mettaton gives his head a reassuring stroke, and he smiles against his skin after a kiss.]
I'm not leaving you, but...
[The robot lifts, barely, shifting some of his weight off of Emet-Selch, for his own good. He gets the feeling that he won't like the loss, feeling that he has a preference for his weight atop him — a pleasing thought to the idol. He takes the opportunity to tuck Emet-Selch under his chin, against his neck to pull him into intimate space, still covering him and wishing to continue holding him close. He can feel the sheer level of his Bondmate's disorientation, and he wants to keep him near as he unwinds.
His leg is once again very helpful in drawing up the covers, and he pulls them around the two of them securely. After doing so, he winds his arms tight around his shoulders and his back, drawing him closer.
He sighs. It's content, and he squeezes Emet-Selch with his arms, possessive and affectionate. He nuzzles into the top of his head with his cheek, reflecting over those last moments where Emet-Selch got so scandalized over the fact that Mettaton harbored such deep affection for him. He smiles, presses into the Ascian with more of his weight again, and nuzzles the top of his head.]
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But the reward of blankets around them was a good one; even better was the feeling of arms around him, and his face pressed to Mettaton's throat. Though his eyes had briefly opened to watch him as he moved, still feeling so overwhelmed as to be blank, they close again as he burrows against his Bonded's neck, as though hiding himself there. As though he could retreat from the rest of the world, shut himself away from it entirely.
And he remains attached to Mettaton in turn, with less desperation, but with no less insistence, as though he could hold him to his statement of not leaving. The Ascian's arm is heavy but loose around him, with irregular twitches of firmness, as though needing to occasionally reassess or reassure that Mettaton was still there, that he hadn't moved from him.
It was harder to detangle emotionally. Everything physical was still more than he could handle, from the comforting weight of Mettaton's presence, the nuzzling of his hair, the mess he'd left against the other man's thighs. His breathing, still elevated, still shaky, repeated exhalations against Mettaton's throat. All of that was more than enough to occupy him, when thought- ever unwanted- began creeping back.
Anything positive, any sort of tenderness or compassion he assumed was from Mettaton. But it wasn't as though he didn't harbor his own affections for him, didn't care for him in turn; how could he not, in the wake of shared experiences like these? And that complicated things. It was difficult enough to sort through all that he felt through the other man- painful in its unfamiliarity and warmth- too drained to do much other than let it settle, uncomfortably on him.
It was a feeling not forgotten- Emet-Selch rarely forgot things, to his continual misfortune- but so buried and neglected, that it was barely recognizable.
There was a lot, and so quickly. Was that why it hit so hard, that it gave him no opportunity for defense? With conscious deliberation, he presses his lips to Mettaton's neck, strangely tentative. Unable to speak, all he had left was some small gesture of affection, appreciation.]
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The robot pays attention to Emet-Selch and what little he can manage, feeling a bit... proud, to feel him unable to cling onto him tight enough besides an occasional twitch. He certainly had his fill. He runs his hands up and down in slow, meandering lines, a gentle but consistent reminder for the Ascian that he's holding him — something in addition to his twitching to affirm things.
The landscape of Emet-Slech's emotional state is far more dismal than his own, and it remains easy to liken it to the depths of an ocean beneath the surface. He kisses the top of his head this time; takes note of all of that uncertainty in his heart, wondering just how it feels to be alive for thousands and thousands of years to the point that emotions such as his own could register so strangely, and he feels pity. He squeezes him, a more maintained gesture rather than a quick one of reassurance.
Emet-Selch moves against his neck, and it's with curiosity that Mettaton waits to see what he'll do. The hesitance that precedes such a soft kiss spoke volumes, and the gesture of intentional affection warms him over in waves, and he can't help from smiling at his Bondmate with an additional lightness in his chest, humming a note of fulfilled satisfaction. His fingers press into him, and he buries his nose into his hair, finding absolutely no inclination to move from this spot.
...He doesn't feel it should be necessary to revisit a promise so amorphous, but, well. He feels like he had more of Emet-Selch than ever, but how did he feel? He needs to confirm. His voice is soft and thick with affection, and breaks only to catch up with his slower-than-normal thoughts, knowing he's well against his neck.]
Did you have... your fill of me, Hades, darling...?
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But the stroking helped. A simple gesture to focus on, and be reassured by, and Emet-Selch even manages a soft sort of humming noise in response, in clear, if quiet approval.
Was it possible to feel both unnerved and content? Because the Ascian was making a concerted effort to experience both at the same time. Because it was comfortable to be held and kissed and even drained, at least in this particular way. And even emotionally, there was something of the same, even amid the sadness. Something that he wanted to possess, even if he was unsettled by it. As it still felt eerie, unusual, dangerous; nothing that could be relied on or trusted to remain. How could he just accept something so impossible as mutual caring and acceptance?
He kisses Mettaton's neck again, as though to assure himself of- something, he's not entirely sure what. But he allows his lips to linger there, brushing over a small patch of his throat with near-absurd gentleness, just breathing in his presence, taking in the sound of his voice.
...oh, that was a question for him, wasn't it.]
--ah. Yes... I suppose. You've taken quite a lot, and given just as much.
[Another kiss, barely distinguishable from the faintness of lips.]
Though- is it even possible to be filled completely...?
[He couldn't imagine ever getting tired of this, ever willingly giving it up, rather than losing it to inevitability. Even the thought has his grip tighten, with a bit more sustained success.]
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As always. I live to please.
[A moment. Such light kisses coming from Emet-Selch feel unusually pleasant, enough to make him shiver, gestures he could see himself getting lost in. It's only fitting that he'd make a remark like that.]
And, given that... I could always try, in vain. However. If it were possible, you might be satisfied enough to stop. I wouldn't like that.
[An insatiable, bottomless desire is nothing short of what he likes to hear. He feels that all good things run on this: in performance, the demand exists because there's not enough of him, and in intimacy, demand exists for the same reason. Mettaton finds the thrill of being in Emet-Selch's intimate company to satisfy him similarly, but in such different a way where he can have a demand in return. He doesn't have much of that with people, elsewhere. It only goes to show him what he'd spent his years without, in neglecting most all close contact.
So he hums, relaxing, though not to loosen his grip too significantly. It doesn't surprise him too much that he'd come to love somebody so different from himself, given the chemistry he feels from each encounter with the Ascian. Complicated enough are his views that... unfortunately, he saw reason in it, and that's a more dreadful aspect.
Something he could deal with later; he's optimistic. The idol doesn't want to think about that less-than-pleasant concept right now, preferring to think upon the present moment. The closer they grow, the more he gets something of a hint into Emet-Selch's mood, and it feels like something easy enough to break with a gentle touch. Something bred out of affection, likely, and Mettaton's all the more willing to dole out more of it for that, feeling as amorous as he does. Mettaton kisses him atop his head, his fingers rubbing through locks of hair in slow passes. Feeling things is good, especially when it's something unusual and jarring, he thinks.
...Emet-Selch's earlier request to temper him in Zodiark's place, should things work out in that way, takes on a new shade of delight for the Puca, who would relish taking him for himself. It would be blind and unbending, sure... But he can fantasize. That relaxed grip turns more intense, and he holds him closer to his body.]
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Though he hears Mettaton's reply, he doesn't answer immediately, still working on his neck, thinking on his words.]
Hm... an unusual thing, for immortals. To find something as equally as unending....
[Or that at least gave the impression of such. And considering their circumstances were not eternal- well, it wasn't as though they'd ever be able to learn differently.
Which was an unfortunate thought in itself, and he hesitates, then nestles himself closer, tangling a leg with Mettaton for extra contact. He should know better by now, to even consider giving into a delusion like this. But with Mettaton holding him closer in turn, the intimacy of the puca's hand running through his hair- it seemed a bit of a moot point. It was already too late.]
How unexpected. To find a preference for going unfulfilled.
[It did surprise the Ascian to be at all fond of someone not from his home. And while the revival of Amaurot would always come first in all things, he supposed it didn't exclude the possibility for caring for someone outside of it. It was only unexpected. Would he still sacrifice Mettaton for the sake of his people (if for some reason it were necessary)? Of course- without hesitation. But then Emet-Selch wouldn't be at all surprised to find he mourned for him in turn. A constant cycle of people to sacrifice and revive.
But it wasn't as though he'd never gotten attached to individual mortals in the past- and had it all end the same way: with their death, and himself alone. But Mettaton already had the benefit of not being mortal (for all that it mattered here), while providing that strange mix of familiarity and the unknown. His complete opposite in so many ways, but he was drawn to him because of it, rather than despite it. Someone he could be unguarded with, who could withstand him... while providing Emet-Selch with something he'd have to withstand in turn. Things like affection and strange perspectives. A mutual possessiveness.
And on the impossible chance that godhood could be achieved, that it worked as Mettaton claimed, and its influence could reach even Amaurot... Emet-Selch couldn't even finish the thought, it was too much of a dream to consider too closely. Though the stray idea of being tempered by Mettaton instead was... more congenial than it possibly should've been. The Ascian had been under Zodiark's influence for longer than he'd had a motivation that was completely his own; having completely free will sounded alarming. And while his adoration for Zodiark remained immovable, the idea of a similar tether binding him to Mettaton, ensuring that he couldn't be abandoned- it wasn't an unpleasant thought.]
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His kisses don't mark him, because they couldn't. But he has the sneaking feeling that he'll be imagining this feeling later on, by way of desire and sentimentality. To think of himself as so vulnerable to affection of this breed, it's almost enough to make him laugh. So he smiles to himself instead.]
Well. Being perfectly fulfilled... means the show's over. So, then... I must be...
[Terribly predictable, all things considered and unconsidered. To think that many of his motivations relate to finding a constant audience, one that withstands the obvious test of the ages and captivated him over the years... Humanity, fleeting yet charming as it is, is the perfect one for him. Why is Emet-Selch right? He'd never spared a thought toward eternity prior to meeting Emet-Selch, and so having his inclination for an unending, thrilling experience be recognized as something someone like them would favor is slightly unnerving.
Or maybe, validating. He isn't sure. He simply hasn't had enough experience viewing himself in any frame other than the sensational present and the dreams unrealized for the future. And that future proves to be vast: exciting, though he can see how it might be crushing to some. There's an entire dimension to be considered about lasting and continuing to be, isn't there? It daunts, but it entices.
He does feel satisfied being unfulfilled and always wanting more. That's the nature of eternal want. Mettaton would always want people to never have enough while simultaneously drowning in it. A person like Emet-Selch who could handle his intensity... It suddenly clicks into place, a realization about himself and their dynamic. Why he delights in it, holds a more continuous flame for it. Being with him gives him an entirely unexplored dimension to living as he is, something otherwise totally different from everyone. This isn't something he could find anywhere else, this person. It's nice.
Mettaton grips onto him. He reciprocates the tuck of his leg by pulling him closer with his own. His legs aren't quite what they used to be, but he finds it nice that he feels so much more with them now, even if they've warped compared to what they used to be. At first, he hated this, but he has no choice but to embrace what he's becoming. He took to it easily, considering he's had to learn how to... move... twice, already.
...Something else to focus on, before this overwhelms him in time. He doesn't dare pull away from his kisses, but his ears spring up with the interest.]
H... Hades, by the way. Before I became so distracted by... you, from you. [A breathy laugh. Their mutual desire is very distracting.] I was also meaning to check in on you. About your Bonds. Since I'm quite dedicated to seeing how this unfolds... How are you doing, in that regard? Any reason to regret your decision, yet?
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Though he still felt as though he were settling back down from his release, their continued closeness, the way Mettaton shuddered and held onto him- it kept him from settling down entirely. Languid, yet interested, and unsettlingly affectionate (that was the only part he had trouble with). But he enjoys that quiet hum he can only just make out from Mettaton, more pleased by it than he thinks he probably should be, and his hand strokes slowly at the idol's upper back. Attention drifting towards the top of his throat, he focuses underneath his chin, even giving it a small lick, before trailing along the underside of his jaw, softly humming in reply. His leg tightens for a few moments, appreciating how much of Mettaton's body he could feel stretched out and pressed against his own.
It was possible there really was some kind of balance in operation here. As by contrast, Mettaton's ability to remain in the present was- if not something Emet-Selch envied, it was something he wanted to understand. Or at least witness. Even if the idol wasn't as ancient as himself, he wasn't mortal, and Emet-Selch assumed Mettaton's perspective to be entirely different from those of transient humanity. And yet he seemed to revel in the opportunities of his existence, could live in a changing world as though its unreliable nature held value. That the present was worth staying in.
It wasn't as though the idea was wholly foreign to the Ascian. Amaurot had been a very peaceful, steady present. He hadn't been happy, but he hadn't been bored either, even if one day had been much like the next, a stretch of time that had felt like forever. Any problems he'd had had come from himself, not through any fault of the world. But after the sundering, once everything and everyone had changed, Emet-Selch hadn't been able to change with it. Not in any positive way, at least; his past was now his ever-present, a weight to crush him underneath.
Even if he'd never understand it... being in the presence of someone with similar-yet-dissimilar aspects was... comfortable. It echoed the past without being the same as it; this wasn't something he could find with anyone else.
At the mention of his Bonds, Emet-Selch pauses mid-kiss, mid-thought, his hand on him stilling. Though there was the impulse to say that everything was fine- after all, he had no proof that anything was wrong, only suspicions- he had agreed to keep Mettaton informed. And while he wasn't bound to it in the same way as a puca was to their promises, Emet-Selch did always speak the truth (as he saw it; and not necessarily the entirety of it).]
No regrets. [That was the most important part, so he says it first.] However... I have noticed a certain increased fatigue. I don't believe it to be illness, and I'm too far recovered from my injuries for it to be the result of that.
[Though he falls silent for a few moments more, it's clear that he's not entirely finished, and the Ascian ends up interrupting his ministrations further by pressing the side of his face against Mettaton's neck and keeping it there.] I've started falling unconscious outside of my control.
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If the Ascian could learn how to simply be without having the past haunt him, he thinks he could only benefit. He catches him hurting so often. Emet-Selch's beyond being relieved of his past without losing his memory of it, but the inability to move on is impressive, if not despairing. There's no coming back from such trauma, an incident of terror Mettaton can only imagine. But if he could help him let go of it for a time here or there, he likes the thought of it.
The attention paid to his neck causes the robot to sigh and shift his other leg in a weak squirm, pressing closer to him as a gesture of appreciation for his contact. His shiver's enough to get him to close his eye and bite his lip to steel himself from... losing himself to continued want so readily, he supposes. He knows he could go on. Have some composure; he's trying to have a conversation!
For the sake of his focus, Emet-Selch's pause is helpful. Mettaton focuses on his hair, able to just barely catch the darker color of it from the corner of his eye where the Ascian has his face close to his neck. Feeling him press into him more firmly with such an alarming symptom...
The robot keeps stroking his hair without pause. For somebody who likes sleep, surely this is remarkable if Emet-Selch finds it noteworthy.]
Unconscious. [He's repeating it, like it could give him new understanding that way. He assumes easily that this is not due to a lack of rest.] That is concerning. I've never heard of it happening before... in the context of a Bond.
[Nor does he know enough about the science of Bonds to say why this might be happening, aside from having too many of them. He's a Monster, so is Irhya, and Mira's a Witch... the last of his Bonds is unknown to him, but no matter what sort of arrangement it is, that could still be three Monsters at most. Three, which is the recommended maximum for any kind, and having his opposite? Why wouldn't having three Monsters plus a Witch not work out? ...He can't delude himself very far, of course. Having three Monsters to service, plus a Witch, likely doesn't change the fact that there are four ways his magic's being forced. Mettaton's predisposed to thinking of magic as a life force, since that's precisely what it is for him. It would make sense that it would rob him of his consciousness.
He feels a spike of concern. It's a bit more worrying than he'd like it to be.]
... I never did tell you. When we first Bonded, I didn't care to... Though now, you might have noticed already. That someone with a soul like mine might have different, steeper demands. I'm supposed to be made of magic, and upon losing it...
[Someone might feel they could handle four, but what of four when one of them is like himself? He absolutely doesn't want to give this Bond up: about that, a streak of stubbornness runs strong. The thought now is unbearable, and he doesn't even consider it, even if he were the problem. His hand rests against the back of Emet-Selch's head, his fingers twisted in his tousled locks.]
Is there something you've found that relieves these fainting spells?
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And the continued hair-stroking was soothing, restful, while the squirm of Mettaton's body was not, Emet-Selch feeling it quite clearly considering how closely they remained pressed. Contrary impulses, but all of them pleasant, and he makes a small noise of approval, encouragement despite the current topic.
Emet-Selch also thought that his current balance of Bonds should make the most sense. If a witch was able to handle three monsters without concern, why wouldn't three monsters and a witch for a bit of extra magic be entirely sufficient? Unless the existence of four ties in itself was enough to disrupt things, that his soul really couldn't handle the transfer of energies?
Or Mettaton's theory was true, that he was a more draining monster than most of them. And for that matter... if he was the puca's only Bond, then the Ascian was supporting him by himself. All of his others had at least one other person involved. He decides not to mention this.]
Mm... I suppose it's possible. Aside from you, I have two other monsters, and a witch. I would assume that to be a thoroughly sufficient balance, but if you count as perhaps an additional monster--
[Emet-Selch sighs. It was something of a concern, but not one that worried him as much as it probably should. Breaking one of his Bonds doesn't even occur to him as an option. Of course he wasn't going to do that. So the only real option was living with it and finding a way to manage it.]
I may just require more rest than I anticipated. I don't appear to have any issues immediately after I awaken, whenever that misfortune occurs. 'Tis only after I've been conscious for some time that problems arise. And even then, it's not... consistent.
[So it may be a mistake to be looking for patterns in it, but a solution of 'more sleep' wasn't exactly an unappealing one. He nudges the side of his face against Mettaton's neck again, hold on him tightening, something that sends an incidental shiver through him. His leg rubs a little against Mettaton's as he speaks.]
...Well, who knows? Perhaps I'll finally take that year's long nap after all.
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It's more than likely that the warnings are as they are because any more than three ties would be exerting to anybody in this place. He prefers to think that there must be another answer.
He allows Emet-Selch to finish, feels him press closer yet and shudder against his body; on reflex, he grips onto him more tightly. He makes a hum of amusement mixed with irritation at the notion of him deciding to just. Give up and sleep.]
Tsk. You will not find that year's long rest easy, sweetheart! Not if I have anything to say about it. I will tend to you, personally.
[He pulls him back with his leg "menacingly" before considering his other idea, which is yet more sleep. But in small doses, something he already feels inclined toward doing isn't so bad.]
With a bit more rest, then. As much as like you very much awake... If it helps, can we really deny it? I'll have to see it that you're getting plenty of opportunities for sleep...
[Good thing that when Mira asked for dating advice, Mettaton told her to stay close to home, despite the plethora of more extravagant options. He had a bad feeling about anything else, and this is probably why.
His body clings onto the echo of that full-bodied shiver, and he continues sticking close to the Ascian as the hand not in his hair roams the expanse of his back. Mettaton had never fully removed his clothes, but with how they remain open in the front, he's able to slip his hands beneath them with ease; his hand, having been pressed to Emet-Selch, is already flush against skin and surprisingly warm to the touch. He presses his cheek to the top of the Emet-Selch's head and presses in deeply to keep him as his.]
We'll all have to support your endeavors for more sleep.
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And he's not at all surprised to hear Mettaton's apparent disapproval for the option of 'actually, just sleep forever.' There was an odd sort of- assurance in that, no doubt aided by the way the idol kept the Ascian's head tucked firmly against his neck. While staying securely nestled there, Emet-Selch still tilts his head slightly, to kiss his throat again, voice muffled against it.]
I'll have to wish you luck in that... as I'm apparently quite hard to wake up, these days.
[Just another point of mild concern to drop in there: not only did he fall asleep unintentionally, it was more difficult to rouse him at all.
And while he wasn't not worried, Emet-Selch couldn't let himself dwell on it too closely either. Because if there was nothing he could do, that it continued to deteriorate instead of remaining at the level of 'hassle'- what option did he have? Nothing. Either he'd manage it with a bit more rest, or he'd fall asleep and not bother waking up: those were the choices. Either was acceptable, really....
Mostly. While the lure of unconsciousness was undeniable, neither did Emet-Selch want to lose out on times like this. And if he was so desperate to not be left alone, it felt hypocritical to abandon Mettaton by voluntarily slipping into a coma at first opportunity. It was all more of a conundrum than it should've been.]
Though if you're trying to encourage me to sleep... I have to say you're not doing a very good job of it.
[What with the hand creeping about his back, the shifting of his leg, the press of his body that he was growing ever more aware of. It didn't surprise him at all to find himself beginning to stiffen again, something that he presses with deliberation to Mettaton's body with a softer sigh. Eyes closed, he licks slowly at his throat.]
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The kiss against his throat and the way he speaks against him is another texture for him to enjoy, which he does thoroughly, a soft, pleasured hum sounding at the contact of his kiss and continuing on as he speaks. He could be both concerned and enticed, which he is satisfied in——
Before he presses his growing arousal anew into Mettaton's body. He jolts at the contact, recoiling for scarcely a second before he finds himself pressing into him with desperation, choking on an unexpected moan. That easily, a switch has been flipped within him, his craving dialed up, his expression wide-eyed and eager.]
Hades—!
[His lips are parted and he trembles into the feeling of Emet-Selch's continued attention paid to his throat, quivering. He thrills in being shocked; he breathes out a softer, breathier sigh of his desire through a smile.
It wasn't his intention to help him sleep right now, but... Emet-Selch has a point about him.]
Wh... What can I say? Putting people to sleep... Isn't my strong suit. Quite... Quite the opposite, actually.
[He shifts his body against Emet-Selch's erection, unable to stay still.]
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Ah....
[It was certainly a feeling to go from lazily aroused to completely hard, just from a bit of shifting on Mettaton's part, from the immediacy of his reaction to him. The sensation of blood rushing lower in his body leaves the Ascian dizzy and momentarily breathless, and he takes a moment to simply revel in that feeling. That he could be so quickly spurred into wanting Mettaton so strongly again (as if the feeling had ever completely faded), the warmth and responsiveness of even a robotic form shifting against his own. To be wanted so blatantly in return; he swallows back a moan of his own by sucking hard at the center of Mettaton's throat. With less success does he hold back a shudder, finally letting go of his neck in order to speak.]
If- you truly prefer me awake. 'Tis. One way of achieving that.
[Though it was starting to feel as though just being in Mettaton's presence would be a temptation on its own. And that the closer they were, the more of a test it would become- though it wasn't as though the penalty for failing to resist was a very terrible one.
With effort as well as some regret, Emet-Selch nudges back from his place at Mettaton's neck, lifting his head in order to seek out his gaze. Something made slightly more difficult by his inability to keep their faces apart much at all. But in addition to the rise in need, there was an accompanying longing present in his expression. A sentiment expressed again in the hesitant gentleness in the way his lips move over his Bonded's face. More brushings than kisses over his jaw and cheek, the Ascian's breathing is shaky.
It felt... fragile, somehow, in a way he couldn't express. As though he were skirting around the edge of something delicate. Something that would disappear if he observed it too closely.]
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He relies on biting his lip to hold back from making too much noise at once at the way Emet-Selch fixates on his neck, kissing him deeply and sucking at the skin over his throat, riding still on the surprise making each sensation feel like sparks. He can't hold it all back, and it comes out in the form of a voiced breath, a smooth, held note that trails off. It's in part responsive to the kiss, but also the sensation of Emet-Selch's cock going from attentive to hard, fully aroused and pushed against his thigh. He feels him so distinctly, dizzying, with the way his body's placed great focus on developing his legs, all but temperature detectable. He can hardly resist reaching down to touch him already, fantasizing about all of the ways he'd have the Ascian next. Once more, some are possible; he swallows at the prospects. Some aren't, as he is.
He pulls his fracturing composure together, but not with any care to seem as though he's unaffected. His smile's a genuine part of it.]
Ah... I. I'll keep that in mind... For the future.
[He shifts again, his body hot internally. It's nothing uncomfortable, barely detectable in actual temperature, but he usually has a sense for it based on how he wants to move. It surprises him to feel his Bonded break away from his neck, almost leaving him disappointed... But not for long enough for it to be anything but a passing look of confusion, ears bouncing up to alert. He studies the Ascian carefully, noting such raw emotion that looks like much of what he's felt from him before in gesture. He's soft, but intent all the same.
It tracks. The gentle expression and hitched breath, the touch of his lips against his face... Mettaton feels his heart swell in his fondness for the other man, and he swallows around it. Such direct attention all for him wins him over, but the way he treats him makes his heart melt. His hand moves down being entangled in his hair to resting against the nape of his neck, the other still rubbing slowly along his upper back. He cherishes it, closes his eye and traces his fingers over his back.
When Emet-Selch drifts close enough, Mettaton interrupts him with a surprise kiss to his lips, firm yet sweet, affected by Emet-Selch's mood as he is. He feels... loved. Loved in a way that isn't simply fancying, but something heavier than that. He slackens at Emet-Selch's side, resting his arm against his neck as he tries to kiss him once more, anywhere he can take him: his cheek, his jaw, his lips.]
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It... hurt. That wasn't unfamiliar. That wasn't even unusual. But it hurt in a way he cared not to examine, as he lets the emotion sink into him with a hitch of breath, a small pained-yet-pleased sound.
It was the mix of needs, ever intense, yet ever gentle and deliberate as well. With every heartbeat his cock ached to be touched, for more direct stimulation, having no particular care for what form it took. Emet-Selch felt similarly, though he couldn't help but rub his erection slowly against the other man's thigh, just for a bit of relief. He tries not to think about the ways he wanted Mettaton but couldn't have him, not yet. That way only lay frustration, and there was too much else to appreciate in the meantime.
Like when their lips finally meet, stealing his breath again despite nothing about the gesture actually preventing him from taking air. But he leans into it with a small, low noise, and even when Mettaton moves on to kissing other parts of his face, his breathing is irregular, unsteady. From the hands on his neck and back, the lips decorating his face with their attentions, he felt- cared for. Cared for and about, which just sets him hurting in that strange way again. His own hand finds its way to the back of Mettaton's neck, fingers stroking slowly from his hairline down to the top of his back, and then upwards again, the touch firm but not hard.
And he continues to provide Mettaton's own face with his deliberation, careful to not interrupt the idol's own actions, though as ever he finds himself lingering whenever their lips happened to meet. On one such occasion, he takes his lower lip between his teeth in a slow drag over it, before flicking his tongue against it in a brief, damp lick.]
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Without thinking, his hand slides from Emet-Selch's neck and down Mettaton's own body, following his own figure until he reaches his thigh. From there, he strokes a finger along the length of his cock and rubs a thumb firmly against the head, two gestures in tandem: both delicate, but thorough. The feeling of him has Mettaton leaning into another kiss with a dreamy, gratified sigh.]
Hades, I...
[There are a lot of ways to finish that sentence, but perhaps he needs to say none of them: the sentiment is strong enough to be felt through their Bond. The one that clouds his mind most is how much he wants him, pure and simple. Among it are sentiments about how much he surprises him, how comfortable he is, and this amorphous one he couldn't put into words in this particular moment. It's feeling cared for, caring for him, wanting the best for him, and wanting to share himself at his best. Love, really. Maybe he could put it into words after all, but he's so focused on being kissed silly and the opportunity for closer proximity.
The robot shifts his thigh against Emet-Selch, desirous. He gives Emet-Selch a flash of gold, passionate and candid in his craving for him.]
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But that measure of feeling over the Bond remains alarming, remains concerning, remains unsettling. Not only in the feel of it in itself, but in the degree to which Emet-Selch wanted it. And while it remained overwhelming, it wasn't as quite as panic-inducing as before, for all that his heart still lurches painfully, that his breathing is shallow and with poor effect.
He has to rest his forehead against Mettaton's for a moment, more than a bit overcome. The wealth of physical sensations melding with the emotional certainly don't help when it comes to grounding him. The teasing stroke of a finger along his cock has him cry out, then suck in a sharper breath as he's unable to keep his hips from pressing himself into the robot's touch. Moaning softly, he clings harder to him for a few trembling seconds before managing to relax just a bit, though ripples of tension continue to run through him.
The look to Mettaton's eye certainly made it no easier to collect himself- and did Emet-Selch really care to? He felt no inclination to hide the entirety of his response from him, catching the idol's gaze with an unfocused, but no less intent wanting. It's blatant and honest, and forever a bit sad, despite the obvious attachment. Or because of it.
Catching his lips again for another kiss, he deepens it immediately, despite his own unfortunate need for air, taking a claim of Mettaton's mouth with a nearly inaudible moan.]
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His fingers press against his erection gently, taking the moment to appreciate the way it feels against his body; he shudders through their kiss, and the sighing noise he makes is impacted by it. He keeps his thumb against the tip, rubbing circles into it while his fingers rhythmically drag up and down his shaft. Mettaton hums into his mouth, losing himself slowly but surely to this moment, caring about nothing but this. The sensation, their pleasure, Emet-Selch's ever reaction and sound. He's grounded in this moment, nothing else mattering but their dynamic and their attraction, built on such unusual vulnerability and trust in one another.
When pulls from this kiss, he immediately comes in for another, his appetite for seeing Emet-Selch flushed and wanting and his igniting all over again. If he wants Emet-Selch in all ways, his complete vulnerability is one of them. There's a smile tugging at his lips as he bites at his lower lip, pulls him in, hums with utter fondness when he notes that he and Emet-Selch are starting to taste the same as he slides his tongue between his lips. It gives him chills, having him so thoroughly.
The Puca's hand against his back traces down his spine, veering off course as soon as he reaches his lower back. He presses into of his skin, soft and pleasant, moves further south and grabs at his hip again, squeezing lower and lower until he's veered closer to his inner thigh than not. He's relentless, however, and continues to kiss him deeply, losing himself to Emet-Selch as he pleases.]
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